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I don't know how to get her out my head. It's really affecting my life and state of mind. It has been two weeks now without hearing her voice and I'm really dying here. I'm going through phases of anger and sadness. I can't focus on anything else. I really really like her. over the last 6 month I did my best to make her like me. she keeps saying how nice I am, but she likes me as a friend, but even as a friend I really don't feel anything from her. She is tottaly empty from the inside. whenever I'm with her I feel like I am with with a robot. She looks good and her smile is amazing, but she seems heartless. AS if she have no feelings at all. my heart is on fire and she is so calm and solid. Anyway I e-mailed her the poem that I wrote and
she emailed me back:
I 'm So sorry if I caused the pain i 've never meant it, just to let you know I do care about you,if my buddy is ok that mean i'm ok. if there is anything I can do to make it better let me know.
so I e-mailed her saying:
Thanks____ I don't know how you can help, but thanks for offering. Whenever you need anything let me know too. You know that already ( I think that could be the problem. You never ask for anything. LOL). I know that you have enough friends now , so I know you don't need me that much anymore, but just incase you do need company I'm only five minutes away. See, I'm convenient. LOL ! I also realize you don't want to hang out anymore, but it would nice to hear your voice from time to time. So this way I will know that you are okay (live and kicking). Anyhow, I'½m really not asking for much. Just be a good friend and keep in touch. That is all. (Your friendship means a lot to me. So don't let me down)
she repsonded:
HI ____,
Thanks for clearing thing up. I just want you to know even though i have other friends but still you are my favorite and it 's never enough to have a good friends. The other thing I still like to hang out everyonce a while if I didn't call that doesn't mean I don't care or I don't want to see you. (you are just a little bit over analysing thing :).
I didn't call ,I want to give you some distance .
like wise your friendship is important to me.
talk later,_____
she emailed me back:
I 'm So sorry if I caused the pain i 've never meant it, just to let you know I do care about you,if my buddy is ok that mean i'm ok. if there is anything I can do to make it better let me know.
so I e-mailed her saying:
Thanks____ I don't know how you can help, but thanks for offering. Whenever you need anything let me know too. You know that already ( I think that could be the problem. You never ask for anything. LOL). I know that you have enough friends now , so I know you don't need me that much anymore, but just incase you do need company I'm only five minutes away. See, I'm convenient. LOL ! I also realize you don't want to hang out anymore, but it would nice to hear your voice from time to time. So this way I will know that you are okay (live and kicking). Anyhow, I'½m really not asking for much. Just be a good friend and keep in touch. That is all. (Your friendship means a lot to me. So don't let me down)
she repsonded:
HI ____,
Thanks for clearing thing up. I just want you to know even though i have other friends but still you are my favorite and it 's never enough to have a good friends. The other thing I still like to hang out everyonce a while if I didn't call that doesn't mean I don't care or I don't want to see you. (you are just a little bit over analysing thing :).
I didn't call ,I want to give you some distance .
like wise your friendship is important to me.
talk later,_____