to Roxy
today is 01-23-05 last night i went and hung out with a few friends of mine, and i had planned to tell roxanne something. but that all fell through when roxy came up to me pissed off about my journal, it put a nice size dampner on my night. I promised not to tell about some thing that happened between me and Roxanne a few nights back, but it is taring me in two. so let me start from the begging of my last joutnal entry.
as you all know me and horty took a trip to lousiana, and as you all know i didn't have a good day persay. so i thought that what i wanted was to forget roxanne all togeather so i cut back on the phone calls, and i pressed on with my life. I landed the best damn job ever almost five a week, and i started to get things straight. then friday night i wanted to go and see a few of my friends and say what's up. well me and rox ended up going to get some cigerettes by our selves. when we returned rox looked at me and said would you mind if i did some thning, i said no and she straight up kissed me (not peck on lips, guys) yes at first it was a suprise, i mean i was jerked back to loveing this damn in one kiss. i sat there for a moment and said what was that for. she didn't give me a straight answere. and to today i still dont know why, im hoping that roxy wasnt leading me on, and that she didn't do it be cause of the job or just to fuck with me. i do know it cant ever happen again. and to ensure it wont i need to ask rox to forget about me, leave me be, end our friend ship. i wont hurt her again. and im not going to put myself in a situation where i could be hurt. so sorry roxanne love, peace and chicken grease. but im done.
roxanne i tried to tell you in person, and over the phone so if you read this first im sorry but i have to stop it. and please remember something for me just because im ending this for good dosent mean i dont care, like a pussy i've had tears running down my face the hole time i love you just cant be near you, and dont want to be.
And i didn't mean you were boring, i ment that the day was boring.
as you all know me and horty took a trip to lousiana, and as you all know i didn't have a good day persay. so i thought that what i wanted was to forget roxanne all togeather so i cut back on the phone calls, and i pressed on with my life. I landed the best damn job ever almost five a week, and i started to get things straight. then friday night i wanted to go and see a few of my friends and say what's up. well me and rox ended up going to get some cigerettes by our selves. when we returned rox looked at me and said would you mind if i did some thning, i said no and she straight up kissed me (not peck on lips, guys) yes at first it was a suprise, i mean i was jerked back to loveing this damn in one kiss. i sat there for a moment and said what was that for. she didn't give me a straight answere. and to today i still dont know why, im hoping that roxy wasnt leading me on, and that she didn't do it be cause of the job or just to fuck with me. i do know it cant ever happen again. and to ensure it wont i need to ask rox to forget about me, leave me be, end our friend ship. i wont hurt her again. and im not going to put myself in a situation where i could be hurt. so sorry roxanne love, peace and chicken grease. but im done.
roxanne i tried to tell you in person, and over the phone so if you read this first im sorry but i have to stop it. and please remember something for me just because im ending this for good dosent mean i dont care, like a pussy i've had tears running down my face the hole time i love you just cant be near you, and dont want to be.
And i didn't mean you were boring, i ment that the day was boring.