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You think that you mean something, that your life has some worth other than taking up air and moving through the daily motions, but it doesn't. You never realize how little you are worth until your best friend is sobbing in your arms, distraught over finding the strength to get through life without her hero, and there's nothing you can do to help but hold her and lie. Lie and tell her everything's going to be okay when you don't know if it is. Cuz you don't know if everything's going to be okay. What the fuck do you say to someone who just lost their favorite person in the world? How do you stay strong when your best friend falls apart in front of you? You can't. There's a piece of you that dies right along with them. But I'm trying to "keep my head up." I'm trying to "be strong." It's hard. I'm hurting for my friend right now, and there's nothing I can do to help.