ugh. i'm cranky.
i'm in a mopey mood, and i really don't like it.
i cried tonight, for the first time in a LOOONG time... over keith. well, not really over him, but more out of loneliness. i haven't talked to him since our falling-out way back in april. and its been a good thing, i haven't even stalked him on myspace or anything. haha. its good. i'm legitimately over that relationship, and can actually look back on it without clouded judgement. its a relief to not have that raincloud over my head anymore.
but shit... what i wouldn't give for a boy right now... (*sigh*). is it really so much to ask? all i want is to be loved.
can't someone make that happen?
i'm really a nice girl.
i'm just increadibly prone to bad decisions. and rarely think things thru.
previously mentioned boy is not going to happen. i deleted his number after this last weekend's encounter. so what if he used to make me laugh. its only been like a month since we met, and things have already gone way downhill. please god, let me make him jealous this weekend. haha.
seriously, lifetime supply of cookies to the person who finds me a decent boy in this world that seems to be seriously lacking in that department.
i could really use a hug.
and josh came up today. and didn't even stop to say hi. i don't even live a block away from where he was. asshole. it makes me really sad. so much for best friends eh?
i cried tonight, for the first time in a LOOONG time... over keith. well, not really over him, but more out of loneliness. i haven't talked to him since our falling-out way back in april. and its been a good thing, i haven't even stalked him on myspace or anything. haha. its good. i'm legitimately over that relationship, and can actually look back on it without clouded judgement. its a relief to not have that raincloud over my head anymore.
but shit... what i wouldn't give for a boy right now... (*sigh*). is it really so much to ask? all i want is to be loved.
can't someone make that happen?
i'm really a nice girl.
i'm just increadibly prone to bad decisions. and rarely think things thru.
previously mentioned boy is not going to happen. i deleted his number after this last weekend's encounter. so what if he used to make me laugh. its only been like a month since we met, and things have already gone way downhill. please god, let me make him jealous this weekend. haha.
seriously, lifetime supply of cookies to the person who finds me a decent boy in this world that seems to be seriously lacking in that department.
i could really use a hug.
and josh came up today. and didn't even stop to say hi. i don't even live a block away from where he was. asshole. it makes me really sad. so much for best friends eh?