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goddddd.
i was mad at tom for being an asshole to me, and then...well, im sure all of you read his journal, which makes me come off as a desperate pathetic loser and is all wrong and now everyone thinks im retarded.
its really not like that. tom thought i liked him so he decided to be an asshole to me to make sure i knew he didnt like me, but that thought never even would have entered my mind. i did like him, but it was like a tiny thing, i like a diff. guy every week. (ps, this week its that junior guy sam who is absolutely gorgeous and...wow.) and i didnt like tom, i liked more the..idea of him. like, most of the guys ive dated have been either really stupid, really white trash, really clingy, or just...retarded. oh and some were druggies. okay, one, but yeah. and tom wasntt any of those, except maybe the retarded part, but he turned it into this big thing. based on his personality lately, i doubt i want to be friends with him again if he continues his mood swings and immatureness. and im not exagerating. (sp?)...im just trying to tell everyone that tom has it all wrong in his journal but he refuses to change it and i decided you all needed to hear my side of the story.
anyway. AP wh midterm was the hardest thing ever i wanted to cry but then i felt great about latin cus its just...latin. but i think i got the story questions and the fill in the blanks wrong cus i can never remember old vocabulary. oh, i finished bridget jones, started edge of reason. its amazing.
oh my. i saw kirill yesterday morning, and i wasnt wearing makeup, i didnt fix my hair from when i woke up (i was planning to do it on the bus..) and it was terrible. when you see an ex, or sort of ex, youre supposed to look really good and make them feel bad...hm. i dont think he recognized me anyway...hopefully. doubtful, but i can hope. i kind of hope i see him tomorrow, but im not going to obsess over it.
i think im going to watch tv and read the edge of reason and then try to study for chemistry...<3
i was mad at tom for being an asshole to me, and then...well, im sure all of you read his journal, which makes me come off as a desperate pathetic loser and is all wrong and now everyone thinks im retarded.
its really not like that. tom thought i liked him so he decided to be an asshole to me to make sure i knew he didnt like me, but that thought never even would have entered my mind. i did like him, but it was like a tiny thing, i like a diff. guy every week. (ps, this week its that junior guy sam who is absolutely gorgeous and...wow.) and i didnt like tom, i liked more the..idea of him. like, most of the guys ive dated have been either really stupid, really white trash, really clingy, or just...retarded. oh and some were druggies. okay, one, but yeah. and tom wasntt any of those, except maybe the retarded part, but he turned it into this big thing. based on his personality lately, i doubt i want to be friends with him again if he continues his mood swings and immatureness. and im not exagerating. (sp?)...im just trying to tell everyone that tom has it all wrong in his journal but he refuses to change it and i decided you all needed to hear my side of the story.
anyway. AP wh midterm was the hardest thing ever i wanted to cry but then i felt great about latin cus its just...latin. but i think i got the story questions and the fill in the blanks wrong cus i can never remember old vocabulary. oh, i finished bridget jones, started edge of reason. its amazing.
oh my. i saw kirill yesterday morning, and i wasnt wearing makeup, i didnt fix my hair from when i woke up (i was planning to do it on the bus..) and it was terrible. when you see an ex, or sort of ex, youre supposed to look really good and make them feel bad...hm. i dont think he recognized me anyway...hopefully. doubtful, but i can hope. i kind of hope i see him tomorrow, but im not going to obsess over it.
i think im going to watch tv and read the edge of reason and then try to study for chemistry...<3