worst night
ok so i went to the tf^2 show. they were surprisingly..really good. i really liked them, they should open for a big band at the recher or something.
after that...the night went downhill. i wont go into tom because he usually reads my journal, and i dont really need to talk about it since i talked to DJ and nick and they helped and it was good.
but..ok. so i know i said im not really into brian anymore, but as soon as i went to the show and saw him something triggered my..emotions and everything i felt for him a couple weeks ago came rushing back. it was insane. and i was really excited. and then he was all over this really pretty and REALLY THIN girl. her name was teeny or something. well, she was teeny i must say. it was horrible. i sat there by myself practically in tears and he wouldnt even look at me. he just..stopped talking. and ignored me. why is this happening?
nz strat: all i have to say is put it behind u
nz strat: focus on the future
nz strat: dont worry about things u cant control...i.e. other ppl's thoughts
good call. its gonna be hard though. especially if i have to see this person everyday.
oh and then i saw danny yochelson, the annoying kid from the jcc dances and we bonded. hes nice. despite what i said about him. hes a good guy...he asked me out in 8th grade lol. i just remembered that. well, at least he actually talked to me. at the end of the night it was all..couples and flirting and i just wanted to leave. toms dad came and i waslike FINALLY and i didnt even say bye to anyone but ocean so i feel kinda bad. OH i met ocean that was the highlight of my night shes the nicest person i have ever met and we kinda bonded and she saved me from total boredom.
yeah. so. thats pretty much it. ive been upset all night but nick helped me a lot, and dj helped me a little too.
now i think i will try to sleep it off, maybe ill be happier by morning. or at least finally get used to the fact that i can never have who i want, ever.
after that...the night went downhill. i wont go into tom because he usually reads my journal, and i dont really need to talk about it since i talked to DJ and nick and they helped and it was good.
but..ok. so i know i said im not really into brian anymore, but as soon as i went to the show and saw him something triggered my..emotions and everything i felt for him a couple weeks ago came rushing back. it was insane. and i was really excited. and then he was all over this really pretty and REALLY THIN girl. her name was teeny or something. well, she was teeny i must say. it was horrible. i sat there by myself practically in tears and he wouldnt even look at me. he just..stopped talking. and ignored me. why is this happening?
nz strat: all i have to say is put it behind u
nz strat: focus on the future
nz strat: dont worry about things u cant control...i.e. other ppl's thoughts
good call. its gonna be hard though. especially if i have to see this person everyday.
oh and then i saw danny yochelson, the annoying kid from the jcc dances and we bonded. hes nice. despite what i said about him. hes a good guy...he asked me out in 8th grade lol. i just remembered that. well, at least he actually talked to me. at the end of the night it was all..couples and flirting and i just wanted to leave. toms dad came and i waslike FINALLY and i didnt even say bye to anyone but ocean so i feel kinda bad. OH i met ocean that was the highlight of my night shes the nicest person i have ever met and we kinda bonded and she saved me from total boredom.
yeah. so. thats pretty much it. ive been upset all night but nick helped me a lot, and dj helped me a little too.
now i think i will try to sleep it off, maybe ill be happier by morning. or at least finally get used to the fact that i can never have who i want, ever.