[[Next to me is Ecstasy askin me if I wanna roll]]
((YesYes))
I've steadily started to appreciate the subtle joys of personal smoking. I think I almost need this disconnection from the world to get through this shit. It's not running away from my problems, it's enabling myself to take a deep breath, relax and look at the situation from a distance and to realize that it really isn't all that bad.
I haven't been sober in three weeks.
It's been amazing. And I've learned how to control my munchies. Ha ha!
My art's been so much better too haha.
If I can make myself get into it -- I get into it. It's just a problem of motivating myself to go do it. Like right now for example, I need to go over to Wallin to do my drawing homework that I've had all quarter and was going to go do it last night (the power was out) but I'm still sitting here typing this procrastinating against my shower.
Oy. Four more days including today...then it's Thursday. Then and only then will all this shit finally be over. Granted, there will be more shit to deal with but what's been my prison and my personal hell for the past ten months or so will finally disappear from my life. I can't wait to get the fuck out of here -- no more waking up from miserable dreams only to see my roomate and her boyfriend half naked and curled up in eachother's arms sleep kissing and then seeing my calander and my picture of Chad on the wall...man that shit hurts.
The time is coming, that's for sure.
Just trying through finals if anyone thought I'd dissappeared from the earth.
Back to lounging while the shower is occupied and then off to the races again...
Peace.
::Ark::
I've steadily started to appreciate the subtle joys of personal smoking. I think I almost need this disconnection from the world to get through this shit. It's not running away from my problems, it's enabling myself to take a deep breath, relax and look at the situation from a distance and to realize that it really isn't all that bad.
I haven't been sober in three weeks.
It's been amazing. And I've learned how to control my munchies. Ha ha!
My art's been so much better too haha.
If I can make myself get into it -- I get into it. It's just a problem of motivating myself to go do it. Like right now for example, I need to go over to Wallin to do my drawing homework that I've had all quarter and was going to go do it last night (the power was out) but I'm still sitting here typing this procrastinating against my shower.
Oy. Four more days including today...then it's Thursday. Then and only then will all this shit finally be over. Granted, there will be more shit to deal with but what's been my prison and my personal hell for the past ten months or so will finally disappear from my life. I can't wait to get the fuck out of here -- no more waking up from miserable dreams only to see my roomate and her boyfriend half naked and curled up in eachother's arms sleep kissing and then seeing my calander and my picture of Chad on the wall...man that shit hurts.
The time is coming, that's for sure.
Just trying through finals if anyone thought I'd dissappeared from the earth.
Back to lounging while the shower is occupied and then off to the races again...
Peace.
::Ark::