yes my heart may beat again, but we all need medicine.
g-d what i wouldnt give to have 'it' all back.
not healing well.
and i dont want to hear the bullshit about it will get better, no time eases mantras.
no way to explain how deep this goes.
more to all those movies that i watch in secret and indescribably feel so much for with so many reasons behind those feelings and ideas. copping out, cowardice, running... soo much. it all just swells.
'your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures'