I do it to myself and that's why it really hurts?
Yeah. I do. If you guys don't want an emotional vomit entry, just move along and wait til next time.
I thought I'd be ok just hanging out with the ex. You know, we'll be friends and such. I realized I have alot more to work out emotionally. He seems to have a gender disphoria thing going on. I don't envy him that at all. I think I may have some resentment and feelings of betrayal bubbling beneath the surface. I'm still a bit cranky about all that and passively took it out on him a bit. Not so good.
I think, though, that I need to remember that what I learned was that I still need to give myself the love and support I deserve before I try to have another relationship of that nature with anyone.
I ended up hanging at bongo and he wouldn't leave. Yay. More awkward. I really didn't want to hang out that long. But once again, I'm the one to blame. I'm the one who said ok. I think it will get better in time but for now, I've learned my lesson.
Ps. Note to self: he lied.
I thought I'd be ok just hanging out with the ex. You know, we'll be friends and such. I realized I have alot more to work out emotionally. He seems to have a gender disphoria thing going on. I don't envy him that at all. I think I may have some resentment and feelings of betrayal bubbling beneath the surface. I'm still a bit cranky about all that and passively took it out on him a bit. Not so good.
I think, though, that I need to remember that what I learned was that I still need to give myself the love and support I deserve before I try to have another relationship of that nature with anyone.
I ended up hanging at bongo and he wouldn't leave. Yay. More awkward. I really didn't want to hang out that long. But once again, I'm the one to blame. I'm the one who said ok. I think it will get better in time but for now, I've learned my lesson.
Ps. Note to self: he lied.