Saul Williams!!!!!!!
So, I had the amazing privilege of seeing Saul Williams live for the second time and it was really no less spectacular. He is such an incredible artist and inspiration for me. I really loved that he talked about the overidentification with the human construct of race/ethnicity as a barrier that keeps us from learning about eachother and self perpetuates racism and separation amongst us. I think this is going to push me to explore my self identity more through art. I'm armed with some newfound inspiration/issues to work out and a years wrth of dr sketchy's passes. Here goes.
In personal bits. I feel like I am becoming more me but I am not quite where I want to be. I also have some envy issues. I really have to figure out how to quell the ridiculous cat like urges I have when things in my life seem to be going pretty well to feel like everyone else has cooler stuff happening to them and I want it instead. You know, like how your cat always thinks that what is on your plate is far cooler and superior so they really want it as long as it is out of their reach, but as soon as they get a chance to sniff it, they are suddenly uninterested again. I'm working on it.
In other news, amateur shibari night went fairly well again. For myself there was a very intense emotional moment that felt like it came out of left field. I haven't earnestly cried in so long even though I might ought to have many times over. Maybe that is where the tears sprang from. Obviously they needed release. I don't know. It is all new to me. I was glad I had the support of my dearest friend. It meant and helped a lot.
Ok. That's all you get for now.
In personal bits. I feel like I am becoming more me but I am not quite where I want to be. I also have some envy issues. I really have to figure out how to quell the ridiculous cat like urges I have when things in my life seem to be going pretty well to feel like everyone else has cooler stuff happening to them and I want it instead. You know, like how your cat always thinks that what is on your plate is far cooler and superior so they really want it as long as it is out of their reach, but as soon as they get a chance to sniff it, they are suddenly uninterested again. I'm working on it.
In other news, amateur shibari night went fairly well again. For myself there was a very intense emotional moment that felt like it came out of left field. I haven't earnestly cried in so long even though I might ought to have many times over. Maybe that is where the tears sprang from. Obviously they needed release. I don't know. It is all new to me. I was glad I had the support of my dearest friend. It meant and helped a lot.
Ok. That's all you get for now.