Rocky
well the weekend kicked ass then things kinda headed back down hill. tuesday kinda sucked bc well the car situation sucks. but i think we get the truck back tomorrow so that i dont get royally screwed over again. Thanks for the ride home from practice Jaxx. then i had to stay home from school yesterday bc my allergies due to the trees that got cut down the day before were so bad when i woke up my eyes were swollen shut. so yeah school was so not happening. then last night i was standing with my mom and we were watching rocky outside in his own little world. she said that they are going to put him down on saturday afternoon probably. he's gotten worse and it needs to be done so he doesnt suffer. i didnt stop crying the rest of the night. i couldnt help it. i cant even think about it without tearing up. hes my baby the one consistant thing tha ti have had in my life over the years. wee had him since i was in the first grade and its so painful to think about not having him around. i remember nights when i wouldnt b able to sleep and id be upset about something and i d just go out and sit with him and hed put his head in my lap. hes always been very calming and loving. i just cant think about him not knowing that he wont be coming home or waking up again. it breaks my heart there i go crying again. he doesnt judge me, get disappointed in me, he listens ( and u can definately tell when he isnt), like i said hes my baby. and i love him so much. i have until tomorrow to make up my mind about college im probably going to keene i dont care what everyone else says and thinks bc at this point i need to think about me. its my life that this will be making. i want to be happy and i think that i will be happy at keene and get a good education they have a great elementary education program so i think ill do well there.i just need support. i need my friends and family to understand me and support me like i have tried to do for them. i appreciate everyones opinions but this is my decision so dotn think i didnt listen bc i have. but this time its all on me. and i dont mean it to be mean or rude or anything but it just is what im feeling right now. but im out for now its been a long day and the week is only getting longer