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well, a LOT of stuff has been going on lately, i'm not sure really where to begin
my parents came up this weekend, and it was so great having them here. i really feel so lucky to have my parents, i'm not sure what i would do without them, so hopefully i'll never have to find that out.
after they left last night...things got pretty fucked up. Well I had a bad headache for whatever reason, and was just upset. It felt like it was the first night being back up here in January, when I broke down about being away from home. I really do miss my friends, and sometimes I feel like I don't have too many up here. I know that sounds stupid, but I feel like not too many people know me up here. Or care to take the time to get to know me. Besides Rachel of course, she's like my sister. Especially since this semester has started, I feel certain friendships I have slowly crumbling, and I don't like that feeling at all. This whole feeling is new to me since my friends at home NEVER made me question their love for me. And I really do miss everyone so so much.
and last night in the midst of all this, i got a phone call from my ex-boyfriend, and we talked for a good half hour or so, which was nice. it felt like we were friends, and that was cool. then i caught him in a lie from a few weeks ago, which made me feel real nice (yeah you know that's sarcasm). I can't take it when people lie to me, seriously. I know everyone lies every now and then, but there's certain things you don't forget to tell people. and even though i care less about what the lie was ABOUT, i still care about the fact that he lied.
things got rough last night for my best friend up here, and i feel bad that i wasn't there for her. It's always nice when people who don't even know someone confront them, judge them, make ridiculous remarks, and cause so much unnecessary drama. I thought we were all 18 going on 19, not 12. But then again, I could be wrong. I'm not too sure what will happen with that whole thing, but I hope everything works out somehow.
only 10 more school days to get through until i can be home and see people i miss to death. my birthday's march 18th, and I'll be 19 :) even though i've got a paper, mid-term and test all next week, it's going to be alright, and I won't stress.
if i've learned anything from this weekend, i realized how important it is to keep those you care about really close, since you're never guaranteed that they'll be there the next day. you think you know people and they change, sometimes not for the better. although this is life, it's not one particular part i really enjoy accepting.
my parents came up this weekend, and it was so great having them here. i really feel so lucky to have my parents, i'm not sure what i would do without them, so hopefully i'll never have to find that out.
after they left last night...things got pretty fucked up. Well I had a bad headache for whatever reason, and was just upset. It felt like it was the first night being back up here in January, when I broke down about being away from home. I really do miss my friends, and sometimes I feel like I don't have too many up here. I know that sounds stupid, but I feel like not too many people know me up here. Or care to take the time to get to know me. Besides Rachel of course, she's like my sister. Especially since this semester has started, I feel certain friendships I have slowly crumbling, and I don't like that feeling at all. This whole feeling is new to me since my friends at home NEVER made me question their love for me. And I really do miss everyone so so much.
and last night in the midst of all this, i got a phone call from my ex-boyfriend, and we talked for a good half hour or so, which was nice. it felt like we were friends, and that was cool. then i caught him in a lie from a few weeks ago, which made me feel real nice (yeah you know that's sarcasm). I can't take it when people lie to me, seriously. I know everyone lies every now and then, but there's certain things you don't forget to tell people. and even though i care less about what the lie was ABOUT, i still care about the fact that he lied.
things got rough last night for my best friend up here, and i feel bad that i wasn't there for her. It's always nice when people who don't even know someone confront them, judge them, make ridiculous remarks, and cause so much unnecessary drama. I thought we were all 18 going on 19, not 12. But then again, I could be wrong. I'm not too sure what will happen with that whole thing, but I hope everything works out somehow.
only 10 more school days to get through until i can be home and see people i miss to death. my birthday's march 18th, and I'll be 19 :) even though i've got a paper, mid-term and test all next week, it's going to be alright, and I won't stress.
if i've learned anything from this weekend, i realized how important it is to keep those you care about really close, since you're never guaranteed that they'll be there the next day. you think you know people and they change, sometimes not for the better. although this is life, it's not one particular part i really enjoy accepting.