On the days you want to disappear

[dreamlikeacloud]

Actually it has been one of those weeks - already. I know this week has only just started but i wish it would come to a close already. All week (and most of last), I have woken early usually with a pretty bad headache that at times verges on a migraine... once i manage to go and relieve my bladder the feeling of complete nausea sets in. Haven't thrown up in a couple of weeks (thank fuck for that, coz that hurts and i'm over it)... I have back pain (lower and about middle of my back) and today i have pain in my belly... also in the area just under the arch of my ribs... Overall I just feel like crap and wish it would all just go away. Everyone keeps telling me it's totally worth it and i'm really starting to wonder (i know it will be, but there is only so much one person can take!!) 27 and a half weeks through this pregnancy I still have so much longer to go it makes me tired thinking about it. Instead of just sitting around and not doing anything I have been trying to power through and get some stuff done... I have cleaned my clinic... and put up paintings to sell... and made a waiting area/room for when there is more than one client... But i still have to do a lot of flyers in the local area to attract more business for the special... and that means a lot of walking and a lot of energy required. I also have to do up two cots and a change table and a pram for when the baby arrives which seems to get so much closer with each thought. Everyday for what feels like the past week I have received bills and they all add about to about $1200 so far... still waiting for a phone bill and i'm sure there is something else... all due by the end of july... but most by the middle of it. I have enough to pay my car rego for a year... and that's about it at this stage... that is $550 of the $1200... so fingers crossed the heavens will open up and shine on me with the rest of the monies hahahah.

Anywho.. i've had my rant for the week... so i shall disappear back into non existance until something important or of some significance actually happens in my life...