Dec 08, 2009 00:30
I truly don't understand my boyfriend's logic when it comes to this. When it comes to me having piercings, he is stagnant. I want nipple piercings and he wants nothing to do with them. Hates piercing in "strange" places. Yet when i mention getting a tattoo in place of it he is perfectly fine. So I cant have metal in my breast, that I will be able to remove when I don't want them to be in any longer. Yet I can have a tattoo of whatever i want on my breast that is completely 100% permanent unless I hate the design and decide to get it laser-ed off. He is just so straight and narrow that it doesn't allow me to figure out a way to express my true self. To be able to find my own being. Its frustrating. Infuriating that he doesn't understand that I truly want this done. I have been waiting for it for a while now and I'm afraid that because of his objections to it that I will just give up this decision.
I don't need his approval. I could go to the nearest parlor and get it done without his knowledge. Then just be on my way. However, his opinion does matter to me. Yet it is still just as infuriating.
He doesn't get that maybe I want this done because I want to look in the mirror and see something that I truly like about myself. To see something added to my body that makes me like it more. To not despise the way nature is slowly starting to take its toll,and not have to look to silicone substitution to insert into my native form.
I don't want man made chemical globes placed in me to make me feel beautiful. I just want two 16 gauge metal rod speared through my areolas to make me feel happier.