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I'm at my mom's store, barely in Missouri. I say barely because I can walk out of here & take 4 steps left & I'm in Arkansas.
There's a guitar in the back with an amp that I'm going to buy. I've been back there playing it. My mom said I was back there for an hour. I thought I was back there for 10 minutes. Oh well. Time goes by fast.
My arms are shaking so bad. It's crazy!! They feel like jelly. I'm so wired. I'm very hyper right now. And I feel good. I feel numb almost. Maybe not but it's a good feeling. I like it very much. I can't feel my fingertips. And it's not from the guitar. Haha. I'm such a bad kid. I'm going to hell, I know.
I miss Jeff a lot. I haven't talked to him in like 2 days & I feel like I'm dying. I bet I break down & call him tonight. That's so pathetic. I'm so wrapped around that guy. And he knows it. He can ask me to do anything. And I'll do it. Only because he asked me. He's a beautiful asshole. Yes, he's an asshole. This is more than pathetic.
Liz is supposed to come down here this weekend. We're supposed to find an apartment. I'll probably go looking tomorrow while my mom's at work. I'll have to walk into town or maybe Patrick will help me find one. I'm excited for this summer. I want all my friends to come down here sometime,though. I want Dalena to come down with the boys from Indiana, but that'll never happen. Too far. That would be awesome,though.
I've been on a search for a cd. I've been to four places now & I can't find it. It's starting to really irritate me. The sad part is, everytime I go to find it, I end up buying another cd so if I don't watch it, I'm not going to have enough money to buy the damn thing when I DO finally find it. Grr.
My nose is starting to sting.
I'm going to go back to the back room. I just came out for a moment. And now the moment's gone.
I also believe I have just become obssesed with this song. It is my new song. Yes.
.::. He's such a beautiful disaster .::.
There's a guitar in the back with an amp that I'm going to buy. I've been back there playing it. My mom said I was back there for an hour. I thought I was back there for 10 minutes. Oh well. Time goes by fast.
My arms are shaking so bad. It's crazy!! They feel like jelly. I'm so wired. I'm very hyper right now. And I feel good. I feel numb almost. Maybe not but it's a good feeling. I like it very much. I can't feel my fingertips. And it's not from the guitar. Haha. I'm such a bad kid. I'm going to hell, I know.
I miss Jeff a lot. I haven't talked to him in like 2 days & I feel like I'm dying. I bet I break down & call him tonight. That's so pathetic. I'm so wrapped around that guy. And he knows it. He can ask me to do anything. And I'll do it. Only because he asked me. He's a beautiful asshole. Yes, he's an asshole. This is more than pathetic.
Liz is supposed to come down here this weekend. We're supposed to find an apartment. I'll probably go looking tomorrow while my mom's at work. I'll have to walk into town or maybe Patrick will help me find one. I'm excited for this summer. I want all my friends to come down here sometime,though. I want Dalena to come down with the boys from Indiana, but that'll never happen. Too far. That would be awesome,though.
I've been on a search for a cd. I've been to four places now & I can't find it. It's starting to really irritate me. The sad part is, everytime I go to find it, I end up buying another cd so if I don't watch it, I'm not going to have enough money to buy the damn thing when I DO finally find it. Grr.
My nose is starting to sting.
I'm going to go back to the back room. I just came out for a moment. And now the moment's gone.
I also believe I have just become obssesed with this song. It is my new song. Yes.
.::. He's such a beautiful disaster .::.