I didn't go to school today. It started yesterday, with my legs aching like hell without any cause at all, and coughs appearing out of nowhere
Then the aches got worse last night and I complained to my dad
I wasn't sick YET
But then the aches spread to my entire body and my head hurt and I ended up having a fever and not sleeping well at all last night since it hurt so damn much
I'm not used to getting sick, so when I DO get sick it really hurts for me even if it's just minor, since I hardly get sick at all methinks, I'm low on endurance. Any kind of endurance.
Papa said 39º was a high fever. Ohsothatswhy
I was groaning and making puppywhine sounds the entire night even when I was asleep I guess, since even when I was asleep I was still fully conscious of the pain coursing through me, and I don't think I slept that much last night, even though I knew I did because I was DREAMING
Eurgh, even in my dream it was of horrible painful things and I woke up still feeling the same pain from last night and the pain from my dream, which leads me to believe I was feeling the same pain through the entire 7 hours of my sleep, being fully conscious of it
Papa took care of me early this morning and I'm okay now
But I felt like such a cripple since it hurt everywhere and I couldnt move anything except my head which hurtsobad.
Plus cough and large amounts of phlegm. He said I caught a flu, but I dont know how I got a flu since noone at school has a flu.
So I don't really have a fever right now since I'm ALMOST better but I think I still have some since well yeah. I still feel it.
Quite honestly, Ive been waiting to get sick this entire year, and the guilty part of me is a bit glad to get sick, since I don't think I woudl've wanted to go to school today anyway
Not feeling very chipper this week. I've been getting smacked around both physically albeit very small, and verbally (quite a lot and I hate it really, i just pretend nothing affects me), and that deepemotional part of me has been a wreck and I dont know why but I hate this week so much even though ive laughed a lot and had fun
I hate this week
Hate it
So Im sorta glad that I got sick because it was THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME THIS WEEK and im not lying.
Thank you, God.