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I'm getting low in Filipino. I hope that my transmutation is wrong. That the transmutation of my class standing is actually higher than I think it is.
God have mercy on me, please let it be so.
It's bad enough getting 74% in the second long test.
Lord, please don't make my class standing as low as I think it is. PleaseGodmakeithighermaketheWRtransmutationhigher.
Atleastalineof8. Please Lord.
OhGodohGod

I sleep too much after school.
I worry too much.
I eat too little. Or maybe I eat too much. I'm hardly happy when I'm alone anymore.
I'm scared.
I am inferior.
Veryveryveryinferior. Even though I know I'm superior in some ways my inferiority complex chooses to ignore them.
I fail at life.

If I get low in any of the Quarter Exams I am so going to cry.
Mainly because of Science and Filipino. My two worst subjects. Ever.

God help me.

-Notaboutacademics-
Does anybody even CARE anymore!? Because if they do, I don't see it at all.
The downsides of being hard to read.
Maybe I should stay quiet an entire schoolday if possible just to show people that HELL NO IM NOT ALRIGHT OK THANK YOU FOR NOT ASKING