know thyself series 4 (habits)
this one may be disjointed because i didn't intend to write this but it came to my head this morning.
i wrap my arms around myself when i'm unsure about something. deep thought, uncomfortable situation - it's an unconscious hug that i give myself to say that i'll be okay.
i run possible conversations in my head in an attempt to prepare myself for a verbal interaction. i'm not very good with words on the fly so i find coming up with responses beforehand helps me not look like an idiot.
i talk to animals and inanimate objects. sometimes in english, sometimes as that animal would talk.
i sometimes feel best expressing myself in squeaks, growls and purrs. if i had ears and a tail, you'd get the idea better. but as it stands, i can communicate with close friends via this animalistic form and they usually understand me.
i look like i'm angry when i'm thinking. chances are i'm not angry. if i'm loudly complaining about something, chances are i'm not angry either. but if i go silent and begin to speak quietly, chances are i'm furious. proceed with caution.
i practice messy order. most of my things are in neat order but there are a few areas of my living spaces that are just a jumble. the kitchen table is one place - i leave my purse, miscellaneous papers there. the keyboard in the bedroom is the other - my clothes from the day or the day before are strewn on it.
i sing in my head almost all hours of the day. i call it my bio-radio. it starts the moment i wake up and usually parades me back into dreamland.
after watching a scary movie, i'm afraid of the dark and usually don't sleep that night. i try not to watch scary movies. books don't have this effect on me.
i make a stereotype casting of someone within two minutes of meeting them. and it's usually right. this isn't to say i judge someone or condemn them. i just plop them into a category of traits that correspond to this type of person and remember how to deal with them.
i look at myself in the mirror a lot. i don't think it's because i'm beautiful but because growing up, there was no one that looked like me so i look at myself to find that. it's a very unconscious thing at this point.
i take my time doing things when i'm scared. i will balk, resist, make up some shoddy excuse - anything to stop from doing whatever it is that scares me. jeff usually sees around this.
i will walk away from a conflict rather than it get heated. i tend to not stand up for myself, even if i'm blatantly right. i like to think that i'm a fighter but in reality, i'm something more akin to a survivor. i hate conflict and will just quietly leave instead of blowing up.
i wrap my arms around myself when i'm unsure about something. deep thought, uncomfortable situation - it's an unconscious hug that i give myself to say that i'll be okay.
i run possible conversations in my head in an attempt to prepare myself for a verbal interaction. i'm not very good with words on the fly so i find coming up with responses beforehand helps me not look like an idiot.
i talk to animals and inanimate objects. sometimes in english, sometimes as that animal would talk.
i sometimes feel best expressing myself in squeaks, growls and purrs. if i had ears and a tail, you'd get the idea better. but as it stands, i can communicate with close friends via this animalistic form and they usually understand me.
i look like i'm angry when i'm thinking. chances are i'm not angry. if i'm loudly complaining about something, chances are i'm not angry either. but if i go silent and begin to speak quietly, chances are i'm furious. proceed with caution.
i practice messy order. most of my things are in neat order but there are a few areas of my living spaces that are just a jumble. the kitchen table is one place - i leave my purse, miscellaneous papers there. the keyboard in the bedroom is the other - my clothes from the day or the day before are strewn on it.
i sing in my head almost all hours of the day. i call it my bio-radio. it starts the moment i wake up and usually parades me back into dreamland.
after watching a scary movie, i'm afraid of the dark and usually don't sleep that night. i try not to watch scary movies. books don't have this effect on me.
i make a stereotype casting of someone within two minutes of meeting them. and it's usually right. this isn't to say i judge someone or condemn them. i just plop them into a category of traits that correspond to this type of person and remember how to deal with them.
i look at myself in the mirror a lot. i don't think it's because i'm beautiful but because growing up, there was no one that looked like me so i look at myself to find that. it's a very unconscious thing at this point.
i take my time doing things when i'm scared. i will balk, resist, make up some shoddy excuse - anything to stop from doing whatever it is that scares me. jeff usually sees around this.
i will walk away from a conflict rather than it get heated. i tend to not stand up for myself, even if i'm blatantly right. i like to think that i'm a fighter but in reality, i'm something more akin to a survivor. i hate conflict and will just quietly leave instead of blowing up.