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I am NOT self-righteous, I simply disagree with your point of view on many things.
It's crazy, you know...how severely a daughter can differ from those that brought her into the world.
I'm a dreamer. I refuse to believe that I have limits, which simultaneously could be considered my greatest fault. Sometimes I think I can handle everything life throws at me, but in all honesty I can't. Yes dad, I know I tend to pile my plate too high...but don't punish me for my mistakes by claiming your way to be faultless. My dad is an ass hole brutally honest.
I have thought so much these past few weeks about what I want from life, which is largely due to my current relationship with my dad. After an emotional phone conversation of an hour and a half, I feel serious contempt and confusion as to what he stands for. On one end he claims that his temper is driven by the stress from work, yet at the other end he claims that money brings him happiness. I am left feeling frustrated because I cannot work my mind around such contradiction. How can this so-called happiness simultaneously lead to the ruin of your relationship with your daughter? I think that love is the greatest and most beautiful part of life, and I cannot think of greater tragedy than feeling regret towards the poor ways you treated your loved ones. Money is increasingly becoming more and more disgusting to me. It brings out the worst in people It brings out the worst in my dad. Of course I'm not letting my dad off that easy, his temper is not solely driven by his insatiable desire for money...but it accounts for a hell of a lot of it. Honestly, I hate holding grudges with people, but this seems more than that. Even after partially delving into my emotions/ whatever the hell my brain is thinking right now...I'm still utterly confused at the next step I will take. I guess one day at a time?