Bad mood...I think yes!!
Everyone has been in a bad mood lately, or has had something to bitch about, or is have problems with their friends and what not. THe thought has crossed my mind that all of this pessimism that i have been reading/writting/ and hearing about has gotten to me to. Thats stupid thought I can't blame other people for why I am so bitchy the last 2 days...or why I have cried at least once a day every day since friday. I hate this side of me. I hate having to watch what I say because I am so irritable. or Watch what I do because my bitchy rath will come out and hurt people...
TOday for example I got a call right before i was about to walk out the door from matt. He wasn't going to school...so I had to find a way home because I was supposed to spend the day with him. K I was fine with it...until 2nd hour when i realized I wasn't going to see him all day and I guess that kinda put me in an irritable mood. Zech pushed me in 3rd hour and I stood up and he walked by emily and was like "oh I won't push you because I like you" yah sure he could have been jokign around...or was he? But I got really pissed. And eddie just like wouldn't take shut the fuck up your an asshole for an answer. He proceeded to talk shit and make me even angrier. Last night even when charlotte shoved her folder in my face at choir like I went off...I got really pissed and said "K I definitely didn't ask for your folder in my face thanks" or something like that. ANd I sounded bitchy. I know I did...and I was so irritated...but I didn't mean to be a bitch...
SO many things have been bugging me the last 2 days it's ridiculous...I don't know what to do about it. It does though seem that everyone's pissy bad mood ish have rubbed off on me. ic annot right now think of one good thing about the day. not once when i smiled and wasn't pissed off...not one Minute that I didn't think about not seeing matt today. Thats another problem. My life is becoming way to dependent on him and that definitely has to stop like 2 weeks ago!! Honestly I will not allow my relationship with him to become merely on dependency!
AHHH
All i want to do right now is fall asleep...I'm so tired...
Maybe I can sleep this whole thing off! Ready set...trying!
TOday for example I got a call right before i was about to walk out the door from matt. He wasn't going to school...so I had to find a way home because I was supposed to spend the day with him. K I was fine with it...until 2nd hour when i realized I wasn't going to see him all day and I guess that kinda put me in an irritable mood. Zech pushed me in 3rd hour and I stood up and he walked by emily and was like "oh I won't push you because I like you" yah sure he could have been jokign around...or was he? But I got really pissed. And eddie just like wouldn't take shut the fuck up your an asshole for an answer. He proceeded to talk shit and make me even angrier. Last night even when charlotte shoved her folder in my face at choir like I went off...I got really pissed and said "K I definitely didn't ask for your folder in my face thanks" or something like that. ANd I sounded bitchy. I know I did...and I was so irritated...but I didn't mean to be a bitch...
SO many things have been bugging me the last 2 days it's ridiculous...I don't know what to do about it. It does though seem that everyone's pissy bad mood ish have rubbed off on me. ic annot right now think of one good thing about the day. not once when i smiled and wasn't pissed off...not one Minute that I didn't think about not seeing matt today. Thats another problem. My life is becoming way to dependent on him and that definitely has to stop like 2 weeks ago!! Honestly I will not allow my relationship with him to become merely on dependency!
AHHH
All i want to do right now is fall asleep...I'm so tired...
Maybe I can sleep this whole thing off! Ready set...trying!