an open letter to the dumb shit i do.
susan,
knock it off. the fact is, youre going to have to give up being the dealer in your card game you call a personal life sometime, and sometime you're going to have to trust that someone else at the table doesn't have an ace up their sleeve.
yes, i know card analogies are freaking lame, but still, knock it off. youre in a great relationship, and you know what? youre never going to be really ready to give up control, but you cant trust someone else until you can trust that youre making the right choices. and you know you are, asshole. so, you know..close your eyes, hold hands and jump in. what comes, comes. stop looking for problems that arent there just to avoid possibly being hurt in the future, youre pulling/pushing away and you know it.
who do you see yourself with in 5 years? 20? exactly. stop making him pay for other peoples mistakes. you fuck this up and i will come to the future and end you.
sincerely,
susan.
knock it off. the fact is, youre going to have to give up being the dealer in your card game you call a personal life sometime, and sometime you're going to have to trust that someone else at the table doesn't have an ace up their sleeve.
yes, i know card analogies are freaking lame, but still, knock it off. youre in a great relationship, and you know what? youre never going to be really ready to give up control, but you cant trust someone else until you can trust that youre making the right choices. and you know you are, asshole. so, you know..close your eyes, hold hands and jump in. what comes, comes. stop looking for problems that arent there just to avoid possibly being hurt in the future, youre pulling/pushing away and you know it.
who do you see yourself with in 5 years? 20? exactly. stop making him pay for other peoples mistakes. you fuck this up and i will come to the future and end you.
sincerely,
susan.