Impressions
Went to see Avenue Q in NYC yesterday. Awesomeness stacked on top of awesomeness! But I knew it would be. I also ran into Jane Kim in Times Square, which was fun.
It was also my little brother's 8th birthday, but I hadn't been any place to notice the date, since we left the school early in the morn, and were busy most of the day. At, like, 5 my mom calls and says that he was crying because I hadn't called him (which i severely doubt is true, but this is what she does) and so i say "i'm sorry, let me talk to him and wish him a happy birthday. So I hear her saying stuff in the background and then she says, "He doesn't want to talk to you, he's upset." Because i was about 100% sure she was lying, i said , "Fine" and we said goodbye.
She is so immature. She acts like she can still make me feel horrible like she used to, but i know the little games she plays. i bet you if i call my bro later in the week and ask if mom asked if he wanted to talk to me, and if so had he said no, he wouldnt know what i was talking about. From my experience, little kids do not act like divas, especially little boys, and say, "HOLD MY CALLS! I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE! ESPECIALLY HER!" I mean, c'mon. If hes not upset when my mother disappears for a week without notice, then I doubt if he cares that I dont call before 5 on his birthday. She make me so rrawwr.
I think maybe my medicine is helping, though it may be too soon to tell.
I'm doing a weird thing though. You know how some people say physical pain makes them feel better about the pain in their life? And that's why you have these cutters and such? WelL, I don't cut, but I think I'm following that same principal. Two thursdays ago, I started eating one thing or less a day. I think I use the pain I get from hunger as a way of punishing myself. Wheever I get really low, and upset, I decide not to eat for another day, or to lessen what i will eat that day, like from a piece of cantaloupe, to 3 spoons of white rice. When I eat something of substance, I feel sick, and guilty, and fat, so i dont do that. But I am losing weight, which is nice. I'm larning to ignore my hunger, which I suppose is a form of self-discipline.
do you want to know a ridiculous thing that happened two nights ago? it was just a stupid thing that a girl did to prove how catty and immature some women can bei was at a hippie-like 4/20 outdoor concert thing with some friends, and i see the dude i dated last semester, im hesitant to call him an ex since i didnt like him, but i guess he is. so yup hes there, but its no biggie, we have classes together and such. but his new girlfriend is there and she gave me a really mean look once for no reason, and she knows, i suppose, that i dated him last year. so my friend heather and i are dancing near them and we're just being silly and minding our own business. and i feel a tap on my shoulder and its his gf and she smiles "sweetly" and says, "Can you take a picture of us!" and gestures to my ex, and i just laughed and told heather to take it because that was such an immature thing to do, i dont know what she was trying to get out of that, i dont know if she got the memo that i dumped him, obviously i have no interest, so i dont know why she'd do that. it's really funny, actually. it shows how stupid women can be
It was also my little brother's 8th birthday, but I hadn't been any place to notice the date, since we left the school early in the morn, and were busy most of the day. At, like, 5 my mom calls and says that he was crying because I hadn't called him (which i severely doubt is true, but this is what she does) and so i say "i'm sorry, let me talk to him and wish him a happy birthday. So I hear her saying stuff in the background and then she says, "He doesn't want to talk to you, he's upset." Because i was about 100% sure she was lying, i said , "Fine" and we said goodbye.
She is so immature. She acts like she can still make me feel horrible like she used to, but i know the little games she plays. i bet you if i call my bro later in the week and ask if mom asked if he wanted to talk to me, and if so had he said no, he wouldnt know what i was talking about. From my experience, little kids do not act like divas, especially little boys, and say, "HOLD MY CALLS! I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE! ESPECIALLY HER!" I mean, c'mon. If hes not upset when my mother disappears for a week without notice, then I doubt if he cares that I dont call before 5 on his birthday. She make me so rrawwr.
I think maybe my medicine is helping, though it may be too soon to tell.
I'm doing a weird thing though. You know how some people say physical pain makes them feel better about the pain in their life? And that's why you have these cutters and such? WelL, I don't cut, but I think I'm following that same principal. Two thursdays ago, I started eating one thing or less a day. I think I use the pain I get from hunger as a way of punishing myself. Wheever I get really low, and upset, I decide not to eat for another day, or to lessen what i will eat that day, like from a piece of cantaloupe, to 3 spoons of white rice. When I eat something of substance, I feel sick, and guilty, and fat, so i dont do that. But I am losing weight, which is nice. I'm larning to ignore my hunger, which I suppose is a form of self-discipline.
do you want to know a ridiculous thing that happened two nights ago? it was just a stupid thing that a girl did to prove how catty and immature some women can bei was at a hippie-like 4/20 outdoor concert thing with some friends, and i see the dude i dated last semester, im hesitant to call him an ex since i didnt like him, but i guess he is. so yup hes there, but its no biggie, we have classes together and such. but his new girlfriend is there and she gave me a really mean look once for no reason, and she knows, i suppose, that i dated him last year. so my friend heather and i are dancing near them and we're just being silly and minding our own business. and i feel a tap on my shoulder and its his gf and she smiles "sweetly" and says, "Can you take a picture of us!" and gestures to my ex, and i just laughed and told heather to take it because that was such an immature thing to do, i dont know what she was trying to get out of that, i dont know if she got the memo that i dumped him, obviously i have no interest, so i dont know why she'd do that. it's really funny, actually. it shows how stupid women can be