new year, same fear
So this is the new year….
New years eve came and went again, this year was strikingly different then last year… I feel that the entire year will follow suit. But who knows, my will power isn’t what it used to be.
My new years resolution is also very different from last year, I wont write it out because I believ now that its one of those things I have to do on my own. I relied far to much on others for things. I just hope the endeavors of this year will lead me to my future, not my past…
this year has been spent focusing so much of my time on the past that now that its over, its seems like that is all it was. I don’t know. I know I want to be happy, and I know that I cant be until I learn to be happy with my self.
(side note)(I also hope that in this year I will stop writing every entry for you. I know u probably don’t even read this, cus I would never be worth the 5 seconds of reading in ur mind. This being said this is the last entry with u on my mind. These are the last feelings I’ll put on the page for your enjoyment. From now on its for no one at all.)
Break was long, and tiersom. I did nothing but rest and wiat to feel better…. It was a waste of time, but tis over now… no point in bringing it all back up. Sorry to everyone I didn’t get to see, or say goodbye to… its not just you, I was mean to everyone.
“Until you can be apart you will never really be together.”
New years eve came and went again, this year was strikingly different then last year… I feel that the entire year will follow suit. But who knows, my will power isn’t what it used to be.
My new years resolution is also very different from last year, I wont write it out because I believ now that its one of those things I have to do on my own. I relied far to much on others for things. I just hope the endeavors of this year will lead me to my future, not my past…
this year has been spent focusing so much of my time on the past that now that its over, its seems like that is all it was. I don’t know. I know I want to be happy, and I know that I cant be until I learn to be happy with my self.
(side note)(I also hope that in this year I will stop writing every entry for you. I know u probably don’t even read this, cus I would never be worth the 5 seconds of reading in ur mind. This being said this is the last entry with u on my mind. These are the last feelings I’ll put on the page for your enjoyment. From now on its for no one at all.)
Break was long, and tiersom. I did nothing but rest and wiat to feel better…. It was a waste of time, but tis over now… no point in bringing it all back up. Sorry to everyone I didn’t get to see, or say goodbye to… its not just you, I was mean to everyone.
“Until you can be apart you will never really be together.”