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i spent a majority of the day being my moms house cleaning slave. i made $20 tutoring a kid in algebra today. then to kelseys for the take home test, good times. i dunno im just kinda blue today. i hate this week. june 2nd would have been my parents 22 year anniversary. and i dunno wwhy but i still get so depressed when that date rolls around. i try to ignore it but in the end it usually comes out cuz i get in a fight with someone and then it just all spirals down. its been a long time since the divorce but sometimes i still wonder how my life would have been different if my parents were still together. would i be the same person? would i be better? would i be worse? i play the what if game a lot and i know its unhealthy but i still get depressed. i mean i should look at what positive things ive gained. i have 3 little siblings i never would have had and i love them more than anything. my stepdad is great. i guess there are a lot of things i should be thankful for. i dunno ive cried a lot this week for one reason or another. last night just kinda sucked. i got in a fight with a friend and that just threw me into a whole depression and i couldnt sleep last night. i know things would have been worse if my mom and dad had stayed together but sometimes i just wish i had a normal life with a normal family. alright im depressed again, im done talking about this goodnight