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I hate this. Everytime he leaves I cry. I cant help it, its just like its one more time less that I will get to say goodbye, building up to the final goodbye for the year. I dont know how im going to be able to say bye to him for so long. It feels so right to be in his arms, more so then i ever imagine possible, everyday it seems like its even more comfortable, more right. I dotn know how i can go a year without those arms. I always want to bawl my eyes out when i look into his face for the last time each night, he always looks so gorgeous, and i always catch my breath because i forget how much i love him and how beautiful he is until i look at him again. Also, when he hugs me goodnight I breath him in and theres no scent in the world that comes close to matching his, i cant describe it, but i love it, and im going to miss that scent soo much. Damnit, now im crying again. I have to stop writing, i dont know that i can handle it.