jeffrey
Wow, tonight was just amazing. First I went to Jeff's house and while he finished some scholarship papers I looked through albums with pictures of him, he is seriously the cutest little kid ive ever seen! he had really big cheeks and the prettiest eyes ever, I love how much he looks like those pictures still. I seriously hope I can have kids that cute some day! Anyway... then we went to culvers and picked up food for dinner, and that was fun just because it was time with him. Then we went to Northtowne and saw
"win a date with tad hamilton" I wasnt expecting it to be good at all, but it was pretty cute, and it made me think of how much i love jeff. I love how movies and songs can make me think of those things, it just makes you stop to think of all the little things you appreciate. wow. Then we were in the car after the movie and it was just hmm... magical.hehe, thats so geeky, but its true. We kept looking into each others eyes,and it was so intense, and we kissed for a really really long time, and it was just so fantastic. I swear, ive never felt anythign so spectacular in my life.I feel like im melting when jeff and i kiss liek that, and i feel so much love, its so overwhelming. We always wrap our arms around each other, and its so hard to explain, but it almost feels like our bodies are combining into one body, its so beautiful though. I dont know how else to describe it, and I cant really describe it with words, but I knew that everytime I looked into Jeff's eyes he felt the same way,and i coudl tell just by looking.Its amazing how much communication is possible through eyes. After the kiss we were looking at each other and i was lying in his lap and i just couldnt stop smiling. I looked at him and i was just amazed with how much i really love him, and then i just got this thought in my head, and i knew that im goign to marry him someday. Maybe thats a little crazy, just to decide it like that, and of course ive fantasized it before like every girl does, but just lookng at him and everything, i just KNOW, someday, i will marry him. its just meant to be. I want to marry him and have a family with him and share a house, and hopes and dreams, and go through rough times, and eveyrthing, i just want to share my entire life with him, and i know i will. i was so overwhelmed witht that though. I dont know, I dont know that I could tell him that now, i mean, would it freak him out? I dont think it would, but theres always the chance, so i suppose its one of those things that i should wait for, and then later on bring up the memory and tell him how i was feeling? i told him that i was thinking something, but could not tell him, and he said that he has had thoughts before too, but it was not the right time to tell them to me yet, and i cant help but be ridiculously curious as to what the thoughts are. I dont know if theyre the same as mine, or even in the same family, but i want to know them so badly! uhh, i supposed thats all, im just still kinda overwhelmed by how much love there is between jeff and i. Ive never felt like this in my life, how is it possible? just lookingn at him, wow. alright, id better stop or ill go on alllll night. bye!
"win a date with tad hamilton" I wasnt expecting it to be good at all, but it was pretty cute, and it made me think of how much i love jeff. I love how movies and songs can make me think of those things, it just makes you stop to think of all the little things you appreciate. wow. Then we were in the car after the movie and it was just hmm... magical.hehe, thats so geeky, but its true. We kept looking into each others eyes,and it was so intense, and we kissed for a really really long time, and it was just so fantastic. I swear, ive never felt anythign so spectacular in my life.I feel like im melting when jeff and i kiss liek that, and i feel so much love, its so overwhelming. We always wrap our arms around each other, and its so hard to explain, but it almost feels like our bodies are combining into one body, its so beautiful though. I dont know how else to describe it, and I cant really describe it with words, but I knew that everytime I looked into Jeff's eyes he felt the same way,and i coudl tell just by looking.Its amazing how much communication is possible through eyes. After the kiss we were looking at each other and i was lying in his lap and i just couldnt stop smiling. I looked at him and i was just amazed with how much i really love him, and then i just got this thought in my head, and i knew that im goign to marry him someday. Maybe thats a little crazy, just to decide it like that, and of course ive fantasized it before like every girl does, but just lookng at him and everything, i just KNOW, someday, i will marry him. its just meant to be. I want to marry him and have a family with him and share a house, and hopes and dreams, and go through rough times, and eveyrthing, i just want to share my entire life with him, and i know i will. i was so overwhelmed witht that though. I dont know, I dont know that I could tell him that now, i mean, would it freak him out? I dont think it would, but theres always the chance, so i suppose its one of those things that i should wait for, and then later on bring up the memory and tell him how i was feeling? i told him that i was thinking something, but could not tell him, and he said that he has had thoughts before too, but it was not the right time to tell them to me yet, and i cant help but be ridiculously curious as to what the thoughts are. I dont know if theyre the same as mine, or even in the same family, but i want to know them so badly! uhh, i supposed thats all, im just still kinda overwhelmed by how much love there is between jeff and i. Ive never felt like this in my life, how is it possible? just lookingn at him, wow. alright, id better stop or ill go on alllll night. bye!