My sex update (or lack thereof)
I talked to Chris for an hour and a half tonight.
He's quite the little stalker, he reads my comments on myspace, and the comments I leave to other people.
It was a good conversation, though. I told him I slept with Cody and all that stuff, so it's not a secret or anything.
We had phone sex, haha, we can't have the real thing anymore, we might as well just do it on the phone.
I just took that fucking Zmax shit and I feel like I'm going to puke, it's real gritty but I'm hoping this makes me less sick. I don't think I can cough anymore without dying and there is a party Friday night that I'd like to go to without coughing every 2 minutes. If I'm still sick like this I'm not going to go.
I'm not sure how I feel about Chris anymore. I think that I will always have love for him but he can be so fucking mean sometimes that even when he's nice I still resent him in a way. But god damn he's so fucking cute, he says the cutest little things. I just adore him, I do.
I have a list of people I'd like to sleep with. I'm trying to not be a slut, I've never really slept with anyone I didn't care about until Cody, but it just seems less emotional this way.
So here is my list of people I'd LIKE to sleep with, but even if I was given the chance, I wouldn't do.
(Except for 2 of them)
Here are the three I'd never sleep with but like to think about.
Casey
Ryan
Jimmy
And then Andy and Sean which I'm pretty sure I could and when I get the chance, I'm going to take it..... I think.
I get nervous sleeping with new people, so who knows if it will really happen, I just like to think about it.
That's all on my sex update, I'm going to try to go to sleep now.
He's quite the little stalker, he reads my comments on myspace, and the comments I leave to other people.
It was a good conversation, though. I told him I slept with Cody and all that stuff, so it's not a secret or anything.
We had phone sex, haha, we can't have the real thing anymore, we might as well just do it on the phone.
I just took that fucking Zmax shit and I feel like I'm going to puke, it's real gritty but I'm hoping this makes me less sick. I don't think I can cough anymore without dying and there is a party Friday night that I'd like to go to without coughing every 2 minutes. If I'm still sick like this I'm not going to go.
I'm not sure how I feel about Chris anymore. I think that I will always have love for him but he can be so fucking mean sometimes that even when he's nice I still resent him in a way. But god damn he's so fucking cute, he says the cutest little things. I just adore him, I do.
I have a list of people I'd like to sleep with. I'm trying to not be a slut, I've never really slept with anyone I didn't care about until Cody, but it just seems less emotional this way.
So here is my list of people I'd LIKE to sleep with, but even if I was given the chance, I wouldn't do.
(Except for 2 of them)
Here are the three I'd never sleep with but like to think about.
Casey
Ryan
Jimmy
And then Andy and Sean which I'm pretty sure I could and when I get the chance, I'm going to take it..... I think.
I get nervous sleeping with new people, so who knows if it will really happen, I just like to think about it.
That's all on my sex update, I'm going to try to go to sleep now.