Hanging on by a thread
I decided I should probably post while I still have the internet. The very nice customer service lady I spoke to connected our internet for the night, until midnight. I have a little over an hour left.
So pretty much life sucks right now. Tony has been jobless with no prospects for almost 2 months now. I started my new job at Kinder Care 3 weeks ago. I leave the house by 7:30 to catch my MAX train in order to be at work by 9 am, all so I don't have to pay $11/day in parking downtown. I was finally assigned my own classroom (young infants, go figure) last week and have been working hard on getting things organized, doing December curriculum and thinking up various holiday-ish art projects. I like my boss and most of my coworkers. I'm beginning to get a real feel for everyone's personality. I was really sick the second week of work. I contracted a nasty resperatory virus and could barely function but because it was only 2nd week, I just couldn't call out. Two weeks later I feel 95% healthy again. I got my first pay check friday and was sorely disappointed to find my boss had mistakenly remembered our verbal salary agreement 25 cents less than I recalled. She said it will take weeks to correct the problem and evenutally I'll receive back pay for the missing amounts. I know 25 cents doesn't sound like much, but when you're living off one meager salary, every penny counts. Our cable/internet/phone were disconnected last week which certainly puts a huge dent in Tony's job searching. I'm worried about making next month's rent, let alone buying Christmas gifts. His brother and his wife (dave and em) have vocalized they're getting us several expensive gifts, and as much as I appreciate their giving, it really stresses me out, because all I have to give is a jar of blackberry jam I made in september. The whole thing is so freaking depressing it just makes me want to cry. Yet some how I manage to show up to work with a smile on my face everyday.
Months ago I volunteered to host Thanksgiving, something I've always wanted to do. Some how I managed to purchase enough food for 2 weeks plus all the ingredients I need for T-day dinner for under $100. (Thank you Winco. I love you. I don't know how I ever survived without you.) Even though we really don't have any money, I didn't want to back out of dong T-day dinner. It just really means a lot to me. I love cooking. I love baking. I love hosting. And I love eating. I guess for me completing the whole shabang is comparable to adding a trophy to your showcase.
I've spent the last 2 and half hours sending T's resume to job postings on craigslist, catching up on my favorite blogs, facebooking, and myspacing. I don't want to stay up until midnight, otherwise I won't survive tomorrow.
Despite the stress and depression, I am very thankful for many things: At least one of us has a job, we have our health, our friends and family, we have a roof over our head (though at this point we really can't afford a 2 bedroom), we live in a beautiful state, Portland has one of the best mass transit systems I've ever seen, my cats love me unconditionally, my man loves me unconditionally, but most of all we have each other. Oh and netflix is a godsend!
So thats the full gament of my life right now. Hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving and happy holidays! Heres to hoping 2009 is a much more fruitful and happy year!
I have no idea the next time I'll have a good enough connection to post here.
Amore.
So pretty much life sucks right now. Tony has been jobless with no prospects for almost 2 months now. I started my new job at Kinder Care 3 weeks ago. I leave the house by 7:30 to catch my MAX train in order to be at work by 9 am, all so I don't have to pay $11/day in parking downtown. I was finally assigned my own classroom (young infants, go figure) last week and have been working hard on getting things organized, doing December curriculum and thinking up various holiday-ish art projects. I like my boss and most of my coworkers. I'm beginning to get a real feel for everyone's personality. I was really sick the second week of work. I contracted a nasty resperatory virus and could barely function but because it was only 2nd week, I just couldn't call out. Two weeks later I feel 95% healthy again. I got my first pay check friday and was sorely disappointed to find my boss had mistakenly remembered our verbal salary agreement 25 cents less than I recalled. She said it will take weeks to correct the problem and evenutally I'll receive back pay for the missing amounts. I know 25 cents doesn't sound like much, but when you're living off one meager salary, every penny counts. Our cable/internet/phone were disconnected last week which certainly puts a huge dent in Tony's job searching. I'm worried about making next month's rent, let alone buying Christmas gifts. His brother and his wife (dave and em) have vocalized they're getting us several expensive gifts, and as much as I appreciate their giving, it really stresses me out, because all I have to give is a jar of blackberry jam I made in september. The whole thing is so freaking depressing it just makes me want to cry. Yet some how I manage to show up to work with a smile on my face everyday.
Months ago I volunteered to host Thanksgiving, something I've always wanted to do. Some how I managed to purchase enough food for 2 weeks plus all the ingredients I need for T-day dinner for under $100. (Thank you Winco. I love you. I don't know how I ever survived without you.) Even though we really don't have any money, I didn't want to back out of dong T-day dinner. It just really means a lot to me. I love cooking. I love baking. I love hosting. And I love eating. I guess for me completing the whole shabang is comparable to adding a trophy to your showcase.
I've spent the last 2 and half hours sending T's resume to job postings on craigslist, catching up on my favorite blogs, facebooking, and myspacing. I don't want to stay up until midnight, otherwise I won't survive tomorrow.
Despite the stress and depression, I am very thankful for many things: At least one of us has a job, we have our health, our friends and family, we have a roof over our head (though at this point we really can't afford a 2 bedroom), we live in a beautiful state, Portland has one of the best mass transit systems I've ever seen, my cats love me unconditionally, my man loves me unconditionally, but most of all we have each other. Oh and netflix is a godsend!
So thats the full gament of my life right now. Hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving and happy holidays! Heres to hoping 2009 is a much more fruitful and happy year!
I have no idea the next time I'll have a good enough connection to post here.
Amore.