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I am walking through a twilight zone.
Did you know there are only 7 weeks left before finals? At what point is time going to catch up with me? And when it does, what will be the effects?
Mom's home. It hit me with her being in the hospital, that she is aging. And that I need to start preparing myself for the future. Mina is diabetic and obese, she has a high probability of outliving him. That really made me feel old.
My grandfather is deteriorating quickly. He can no longer walk around walmart (his favorite past time for awhile now) due to his emphazima. His depression increases daily. I can't stand seeing him like this. So I pretend it's not happening. This will be a very intense christmas if he makes it that far.
Events are beginning to happen leading towards my departure for San Diego. This past weekend, at faire, Preston's family gave me goodbye hugs and wished me the best. I only see them during faire, so it stuned me when I realized that the goodbyes are beginning. That it's going to happen.
The photographer who took my portraits, has good friends in SD who own rental property. Everythings falling into place. And I'm terrified.
Josh resurfaced. He wants to date me again. I must begin a balancing act.
Did you know there are only 7 weeks left before finals? At what point is time going to catch up with me? And when it does, what will be the effects?
Mom's home. It hit me with her being in the hospital, that she is aging. And that I need to start preparing myself for the future. Mina is diabetic and obese, she has a high probability of outliving him. That really made me feel old.
My grandfather is deteriorating quickly. He can no longer walk around walmart (his favorite past time for awhile now) due to his emphazima. His depression increases daily. I can't stand seeing him like this. So I pretend it's not happening. This will be a very intense christmas if he makes it that far.
Events are beginning to happen leading towards my departure for San Diego. This past weekend, at faire, Preston's family gave me goodbye hugs and wished me the best. I only see them during faire, so it stuned me when I realized that the goodbyes are beginning. That it's going to happen.
The photographer who took my portraits, has good friends in SD who own rental property. Everythings falling into place. And I'm terrified.
Josh resurfaced. He wants to date me again. I must begin a balancing act.