Mixed Blessings
Today really was a day of good and bad...
In an effort to remain positive, as someone I care for very much keeps telling me I should do, I'll start with that.
The Positive:
Today was...wonderful. :D The guy I mentioned in my previous entry...we spent the day together, though we were supposed to also go to a game, those plans fell through (see the negative, below). I picked him up early this morning and we hung out (clothes came off shortly after we got back here ;P). The sex was great ;), and he was awesome. :) ...we watched a bit of anime, but that fell through rather quickly. The anime was put on mute shortly after. ;p But...wow. :D I forgot how much I loved just cuddling with him, geeking out with him...and yes, we are definitely the stereotypical cutesie couple right now. ;D
...we tried once before, and it didn't work out so well. But we've both grown and matured since then. ...and come to some new revelations which have drawn us closer together. <3 I share more with him than with any other boyfriend I've ever had in the past, too. ;D
I'm determined to make this work, this time. <3
The Negative:
Sometimes I think the universe is out to get me. But a long time ago, back in elementary school, I made a promise: if it was going to be Chris vs. the World, *I* would win. And I'm not going to give up now. No matter HOW apathy and misfortune strikes me down!
The guy and I were heading to York, but before we could even start leaving Whitby...we got into a car accident. :\ I was making a left turn as usual. There was a car coming, but it was quite distant - but I misjudged its speed (and that bastard was going FAST). He slamed into the front of my car, totalling it. I think it was ~$8000 worth of damages, at first inspection. We'll know the full figure tomorrow. Also, there was an ass who scraped his fender as a result of our accident. He did nothing but complain about how that scrape would cost oh-so-much to repair, while the two of us with *crushed in engines* remained silent.
The best thing was that no one was hurt, which is good. The bad part is that I now owe my parents even more money (totalling a sum only a few hundred short of $2000), and have a $110 ticket (easily remedied), AND will probably have to deal with higher insurance rates, which I can scarce afford. It's far better than the alternatives, but...I'm trying to remain positive about things. After all...things could be worse, a LOT worse. But they weren't. Money IS an issue, but one that can be resolved with a bit (okay, a LOT) of perseverance. I'll freely admit that money issues of the present and future terrify me. But I'm working on it...slowly...
The Final Word:
Today could have been far worse, and for that, I'm immensely greatful. Money matters worry me, but I know I can get through it if I try - it's just hard breaking out of that apathy sometimes. I've worked myself into a corner and it's hard to get out. BUT! I'm going to try my hardest! I refuse to live the life of an unmedicated, struggling writer! I WILL rise above, and make something of my life. I promise.
...it's also been suggested that I pay for some college after university, to help me get a job. It's quite possibly well worth the costs, even if I have to do it myself. I'm going to have to look into it.
And, finally...*nuzzle* To that sexy fox I like so much...
Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well...
In an effort to remain positive, as someone I care for very much keeps telling me I should do, I'll start with that.
The Positive:
Today was...wonderful. :D The guy I mentioned in my previous entry...we spent the day together, though we were supposed to also go to a game, those plans fell through (see the negative, below). I picked him up early this morning and we hung out (clothes came off shortly after we got back here ;P). The sex was great ;), and he was awesome. :) ...we watched a bit of anime, but that fell through rather quickly. The anime was put on mute shortly after. ;p But...wow. :D I forgot how much I loved just cuddling with him, geeking out with him...and yes, we are definitely the stereotypical cutesie couple right now. ;D
...we tried once before, and it didn't work out so well. But we've both grown and matured since then. ...and come to some new revelations which have drawn us closer together. <3 I share more with him than with any other boyfriend I've ever had in the past, too. ;D
I'm determined to make this work, this time. <3
The Negative:
Sometimes I think the universe is out to get me. But a long time ago, back in elementary school, I made a promise: if it was going to be Chris vs. the World, *I* would win. And I'm not going to give up now. No matter HOW apathy and misfortune strikes me down!
The guy and I were heading to York, but before we could even start leaving Whitby...we got into a car accident. :\ I was making a left turn as usual. There was a car coming, but it was quite distant - but I misjudged its speed (and that bastard was going FAST). He slamed into the front of my car, totalling it. I think it was ~$8000 worth of damages, at first inspection. We'll know the full figure tomorrow. Also, there was an ass who scraped his fender as a result of our accident. He did nothing but complain about how that scrape would cost oh-so-much to repair, while the two of us with *crushed in engines* remained silent.
The best thing was that no one was hurt, which is good. The bad part is that I now owe my parents even more money (totalling a sum only a few hundred short of $2000), and have a $110 ticket (easily remedied), AND will probably have to deal with higher insurance rates, which I can scarce afford. It's far better than the alternatives, but...I'm trying to remain positive about things. After all...things could be worse, a LOT worse. But they weren't. Money IS an issue, but one that can be resolved with a bit (okay, a LOT) of perseverance. I'll freely admit that money issues of the present and future terrify me. But I'm working on it...slowly...
The Final Word:
Today could have been far worse, and for that, I'm immensely greatful. Money matters worry me, but I know I can get through it if I try - it's just hard breaking out of that apathy sometimes. I've worked myself into a corner and it's hard to get out. BUT! I'm going to try my hardest! I refuse to live the life of an unmedicated, struggling writer! I WILL rise above, and make something of my life. I promise.
...it's also been suggested that I pay for some college after university, to help me get a job. It's quite possibly well worth the costs, even if I have to do it myself. I'm going to have to look into it.
And, finally...*nuzzle* To that sexy fox I like so much...
Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well...