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Lord... please hear my prayer.
I don't do anything wrong. I just sit here at the computer. For a few seconds I am at peace with everything. I am talking to my friends who love me, I'm in a warm house, I have everything I've always wanted. And I thank you for that. But... as soon as those few moments are over... I don't know what to do.
Please... if there is any way to escape from these emotional attacks at home... just some way to just fly away from it all, and not have to feel the pain anymore. Not have to deal with my dad just taking out everything on me all the time. I don't even respond... he doesn't ask me about my day, doesn't even say hello. Just goes right into his little yelling and swearing sprees, about something I'm doing that isn't to his satisfaction, even though all I ever do is just to make him just a little bit happy...
Is there no way to get away? Is there absolutely no way to put an end to it? Please God, if you could give me wings to just soar out of this home. Whenever I'm away from home I just pray that I don't have to go back. I can't handle it anymore. Please help me.
Please, oh please God. I don't know what to do.
I don't do anything wrong. I just sit here at the computer. For a few seconds I am at peace with everything. I am talking to my friends who love me, I'm in a warm house, I have everything I've always wanted. And I thank you for that. But... as soon as those few moments are over... I don't know what to do.
Please... if there is any way to escape from these emotional attacks at home... just some way to just fly away from it all, and not have to feel the pain anymore. Not have to deal with my dad just taking out everything on me all the time. I don't even respond... he doesn't ask me about my day, doesn't even say hello. Just goes right into his little yelling and swearing sprees, about something I'm doing that isn't to his satisfaction, even though all I ever do is just to make him just a little bit happy...
Is there no way to get away? Is there absolutely no way to put an end to it? Please God, if you could give me wings to just soar out of this home. Whenever I'm away from home I just pray that I don't have to go back. I can't handle it anymore. Please help me.
Please, oh please God. I don't know what to do.