I really don't do this. Like, never. But seriously, this is too much for me to handle without ranting. I need a place to express myself freely and to somehow group all the comments I've been leaving everywhere since last night.
And it's a LONG rant too, so I'm putting it under a cut to keep my non-SPN friends from death by boredom.
First of all, I love Sam and Dean. But Cas is my favorite character. Haters to the left. I've been watching SPN since episode 1 and I really liked it, but I only LOVED it when Cas appeared. So, of course I'm not happy with him turning into the next Big Bad. This goes against everything Cas believed in and fought for in season 4 and 5. And don't let me start on his relationship with the boys. I mean, how the writers can possibly think that is logic to have Cas save Dean again on 6x21 and even healing Lisa and then on 6x22 going all "bow down before me or DIE"?? How is that character development instead of character assassination??
Of course, acording to Sera Gamble,
"we did it because we adore him so much" . I know this is not only Sera's fault, but her logic makes me want to throw up.
And then there's the haters who are bashing us Cas fans, because "SERIOUSLY, GET OVER IT, HE'S JUST ANOTHER EXPENDABLE CHARACTER IN A SHOW THAT'S ABOUT TWO BROTHERS AND IT SHOULD BE LIKE THAT FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER".
Dear haters, I KNOW the show is not about Cas. I've never thought that SPN is going to end with Sam and Dean happily driving off to the sunset with Cas in the back seat. In fact, in my most optimistic moments, I thought that if he became human, he was probably going to live with Bobby, as another backup friend.
But it's undeniable how important Cas is for a big part of the fandom. Haters, respect our feelings and gloat among yourselves: you're getting your two-man show again. Let's see where that takes SPN.
Also, I wouldn't be that fast in labeling Cas as "expendable". As somebody said in one of the many post I've read since last night, a LOT of the viewers are relatively new. Some came just for the Heaven arc, others for different reasons, but let's face it: right now, we have many viewers and fans that first knew Show with CAS IN IT. As in Team Free Will.
I think TPTB know that, because it would have been so much easier just to kill Cas, or to let him go quietely to Heaven at the end of season 5, never to be seen again, thus ending the Heaven arc definitively. But look at the lengths they're gone just to keep him, never mind that it seems that they don't know exactly what to do with him ("Hey, I KNOW! Let's turn him into the Evil Guy! That way we get to keep the Cas fans, who will still watch just to know how it ends and we also please the purist who want the Dean and Sam show back!!").
Of course I know there are many Cas fans that are really happy with this turn of events and I kinda see their point, because Misha is going to rock our world with his acting on season 7, being all magnificent and BAMFy and dark (let's not forget that Misha actually wanted to play bad Cas... I'm sure he will be brilliant!).
But.
And that leads me to my main reason why I'm so utterly devastated by 6x22.
I'm AFRAID. I can totally go with season 7 being about the boys try to get their friend back, to exorcise of all the purgatory souls tainting him. But my lack of faith in the writers (and the rest of TPTB) is leading me to the sad conclusion that they're going to take the easy way: "OMG, CAS IS A MONSTER, LET'S GO KILL HIM!!!"
Remember
Season 7 description? The Winchesters will find themselves in an increasingly sinister, changing landscape, up against a new foe unlike anything they've ever fought. They'll find their old tricks, weapons and hiding places all rendered useless. All they'll have is each other. And the certainty that, like the last of the cowboy outlaws, whatever they face, they're not going down without a fight.
Yeah. Every time Cas tries to kill them or every time he sends a monster after them, they are going to see him more and more as a monster, forgetting the ally and the friend who fought side by side with them, who gave his grace for them, who DIED for them. And they are going to fight him with all they have and they'll end killing him, of course. And that will count as a great victory and motive to celebrate because they defeated the Big Bad.
Of course they're going to need allies. And I'm thinking Crowley. After all, Godstiel has "plans" for him too (and the tone of his voice didn't sound very nice at that), so he will be trying to keep himself alive too, even if it means allying with the Winchesters. I LOVE the fierce bastard, but not as a Cas replacement in Team Free Will. NEVER.
Should I try to remain optimistic? I don't think so. After all, I was convinced that Cas was going to be evil a month ago (and proclaimed it to whoever wanted to hear), then I went to the other side of the spectrum and kept thinking he was going to fall and be human (and I proclaimed it too) just to end up, 24 hours ago, heartbroken. So, yeah, I'm done with being optimistic regarding SPN.
I'm not even mad with Misha not being a regular on season 7. First of all, because he had more screentime back when he was a guest star. And second, because I'd rather see as little of Evil!Cas as possible. IT HURTS ME. JUST TO THINK ABOUT IT. I haven't decided if I'm going to keep watching Show, to tell the truth. I probably will, just to see how it ends. But... and I never thought I was going to say this... I'm really hoping season 7 is the last one. No more for me, thanks. Way to take a great show and turning it into a dark, depressing thing.
This recap expressed my feelings in a really accurated way.
Now what? I need to calm down and get over this, of course. Damn my emotional investment in fictional characters. I've had the most depressing day and I can't even read fanfic or watch my fav good-cas episodes because it breaks my heart to remember how it was when he was an angel of the Lord, raising people from perdition and fighting for the side of good. Point in case: I was reading a fanfic today and suddenly Cas says "Hello, Dean". I burst into tears. Seriously. Because that's the Cas I love. My BB angel who said Hello Dean and tilted his head in wonder and didn't threat to kill the boys if they didn't kneel before him.
I'll recover, eventually. But until that, you'll find me crying in a corner for what once was my favorite show and my favorite character. ;_;