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[dreaming_faerie]

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[anonymous]

I envy you sometimes. I miss being young and in love. Heck, i miss being in love in general. As much as i hate normal people, i wish i could trade places with them sometimes. If i could, i wouldn't have to deal with this pain. I see bread people. What i hate, what i really hate, is...how i can't be..."me" when i try to meet someone. I feel as though, as the years keep passing, i just keep getting older, and further away from anime fans. Sure, i know there are plenty of 20+ years of age anime fans. But it seems that for so many people anime is just a fad. They can obsess over it when they are young, but they get older and it's just "oh well i used to love anime, but with college and getting a job i just don't have time for it anymore." I've been alone for so long now that i often just wish for death. Not that i would kill myself, but more so that i just wish for something to happen and me to be killed. I'm willing to sacrifice so much. Move to almost any city, or have someone move to me. Work/live for that person to be happy. Shower them with affection and let them know they are loved. But it's always just me and the PS3. Just me and my compy. Just me and my sketchbook. Speaking of my sketchbook, I really wish i had more time in the day. Or maybe just one more day in the weekends. I could accomplish so much. So many drawings are in my head that i could just literally sit down and draw for an entire month to get them all out. I have to say, i can't connect to ..probably half the people on my friends list. Some of them were people i wanted to try and start a relationship with and thusly was only remotely interested in. Some of them just have completely different interest altogether. I probably come back just in case Ash or Tim make a post. Which is rare. lol.