thinking
love.... what is that, i thought i knew but when i seem to try and give it another try it gets thrown right back at me. im starting to really hate that word. i cant stand it, you think you have it all but then it comes crashing down throwing you to the bottom of the world.
ive seen rock bottom im there right now, im finally starting my life over again i feel like im 15 again. im almost 21 now and i dont have an insured vehicle (at the moment) i finally start my new job at toys r us tomorrow working part time. what is that seriously, i dont know anymore.
life is full of ups and downs trust me i have seen many of the different sides of life. ive had the ups and downs more downs than the ups but hey im still here working out my life trying to get something going for myself. i dont know where im heading or what im going to do with my life but all i know is i will make it someday.
this is a very depressing time of my life. i lost everything i ever worked for and everything i ever had. its all gone. nobody seems to really understand what i feel inside, sometimes it really seems like people dont care about my problems so i tend to keep them stuck inside me bottled up.
everytime i do something in my life where it screws myself up or not it just doesnt seem real nothing seems real to me, to me its all fake, i dont really care about what happens next week or next year i only care about whats going on today right at this very moment. thats how i live my life i know it isnt the best way but.
i really dont know what else to right here so i guess im going to jet up out of here maybe find something to do to pass time.
ive seen rock bottom im there right now, im finally starting my life over again i feel like im 15 again. im almost 21 now and i dont have an insured vehicle (at the moment) i finally start my new job at toys r us tomorrow working part time. what is that seriously, i dont know anymore.
life is full of ups and downs trust me i have seen many of the different sides of life. ive had the ups and downs more downs than the ups but hey im still here working out my life trying to get something going for myself. i dont know where im heading or what im going to do with my life but all i know is i will make it someday.
this is a very depressing time of my life. i lost everything i ever worked for and everything i ever had. its all gone. nobody seems to really understand what i feel inside, sometimes it really seems like people dont care about my problems so i tend to keep them stuck inside me bottled up.
everytime i do something in my life where it screws myself up or not it just doesnt seem real nothing seems real to me, to me its all fake, i dont really care about what happens next week or next year i only care about whats going on today right at this very moment. thats how i live my life i know it isnt the best way but.
i really dont know what else to right here so i guess im going to jet up out of here maybe find something to do to pass time.