i am ready, i am ready, i am ready......
so it's taking me an extraordinarily long amount of time to burnish my last ceramics piece, read a couple chapters, and do my spanish homework. the last of which i'm still in the process of doing and am not even halfway through. bah....plus i haven't even tried to do anything with my ed portfolio. bad, i know. i just........
ugh i don't want to think about it...because every time i look at the that shit i'm amazed at how i even passed half of my ed classes. and like this portfolio is supposed to be a reflection of my work over the 4 years. idk, i guess i keep putting it off cause it's something that scares me. i hate reviewing work i know isn't that good. i mean, yes i know i'm supposed to put my best work in there, but i feel like my best work isn't even good enough for the ed department. never has been. hence, why i was on probation last semester. they just don't think i'm good enough to teach....which in turn makes me feel like i'm not good enough to teach. ugh i hate these feelings. i want to have a good semester. i should've just done my portfolio over winter break like i said i would. (my parents should have also gotten me new furniture over winter break like they said they would, but that's a different story)
blaaaaaah. i need to finish my stupid spanish homework. and pray that my professor says meeting on thursday is good because i need till thursday to do my portfolio stuff. why does the weekend always take so long to come and then pass so quickly???
ugh i don't want to think about it...because every time i look at the that shit i'm amazed at how i even passed half of my ed classes. and like this portfolio is supposed to be a reflection of my work over the 4 years. idk, i guess i keep putting it off cause it's something that scares me. i hate reviewing work i know isn't that good. i mean, yes i know i'm supposed to put my best work in there, but i feel like my best work isn't even good enough for the ed department. never has been. hence, why i was on probation last semester. they just don't think i'm good enough to teach....which in turn makes me feel like i'm not good enough to teach. ugh i hate these feelings. i want to have a good semester. i should've just done my portfolio over winter break like i said i would. (my parents should have also gotten me new furniture over winter break like they said they would, but that's a different story)
blaaaaaah. i need to finish my stupid spanish homework. and pray that my professor says meeting on thursday is good because i need till thursday to do my portfolio stuff. why does the weekend always take so long to come and then pass so quickly???