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i can understand why they would be upset. i didn't listen to them at all while drunk. i do have a drinking problem and just possibly they aren't concerned for my safety. i won't pose a but to this, not yet anyway. i will actually try and just view it from their stand point. maybe they figure they've been through enough of my drinking brigades and it's time for them to stop. to stop trying to help me. maybe they figured they've done all they can and so now, we don't want anything to do with him.
ok i've said somethings already that i have to rebuttle. first off, they never tried to help me stop drinking. we had parties all the time, and went as a group. they never suggested you should stop drinking, it was just joked about that we all drink too much; secretly we admitted to ourselves that it was true. no i don't like this awkwardness of just droppiong a friend but they aren't trying to rekindle anything, and i'm not up for explanations. i have a lot of issues with this person as of now because i've taken the ntime to sit back and remind myself of exactly the type of relationship we had. i was the listener and consoler, and she was the talker, but when i talked she didn't listen, or so it didn't seem. i think the best way to just leave this alone would be to stop thinking about it and just live.
another friend told me today that they can't be around me when i drink; only if i decide to stay. i can' tsay that, because you never know what happens at a party, and if something i dont' like happens i'm not gonna want to stay, and there's no way, once i start drinking that you can convince me to stay, unless i trust you. trust is a big issue with me and especially when i'm drunk. if i don't trust you or your judgement then i won't listen to you, simple as that.
*nimitz katz, i just thought of brian the hawaiin that played trombone, ask me more later*
ok i've said somethings already that i have to rebuttle. first off, they never tried to help me stop drinking. we had parties all the time, and went as a group. they never suggested you should stop drinking, it was just joked about that we all drink too much; secretly we admitted to ourselves that it was true. no i don't like this awkwardness of just droppiong a friend but they aren't trying to rekindle anything, and i'm not up for explanations. i have a lot of issues with this person as of now because i've taken the ntime to sit back and remind myself of exactly the type of relationship we had. i was the listener and consoler, and she was the talker, but when i talked she didn't listen, or so it didn't seem. i think the best way to just leave this alone would be to stop thinking about it and just live.
another friend told me today that they can't be around me when i drink; only if i decide to stay. i can' tsay that, because you never know what happens at a party, and if something i dont' like happens i'm not gonna want to stay, and there's no way, once i start drinking that you can convince me to stay, unless i trust you. trust is a big issue with me and especially when i'm drunk. if i don't trust you or your judgement then i won't listen to you, simple as that.
*nimitz katz, i just thought of brian the hawaiin that played trombone, ask me more later*