What the heckll....

[dreamgiver]

Work is cool. I get my t-shirt tomorrow!! WHOO HOO!!! Really, im not that excited about it though. lol. I work from 12-9, but Angie said that i'll probably only be there until four. So whatever. I'm good with that too. My uncle is coming in from florida today, he'll be here in about an hour, so I'll get to see him, Briand works 4-close (midnight) every night. And I work from 9 (or 12) to 4 each day, so it sucks because I DON'T GET TO SEE HIM! But i know some one who does. *evil glares*...Speaking of which, Laura, Voo Doo bowling...we need to go some time soon....seriously. I could use the stress relief. AND I HAD FUN WITH YOU! We need to hang out again. Anyways....Yeah. Work is cool. There are only a few people that i actually LIKE to work with, and one or 2 people that i can mearly tolerate, and all the rest, are cool. Give or take, you know? Anyways, i hate work, because of the fact that i never get to see brian, but i hate not working, becuase i need the money and i actually like my job. I honestly think that brian is going to break up with me because we have no time for each other. He says that he won't but thats for now. I mean, in two weeks when he's seen *evil glares* 100 times more than me he's going to realize that this relationship isn't time compatible, and he'll break up with me. It's making me doubt myself. It's making me doubt a lot of things. I try really hard to make time. I wait up for him to get off work, so that he can call me, even when im dog tired. If im not working at night and he is, i bring him dinner, and all of that kinda stuff, i go visit him at work if I'm allowed (if they aren't busy). And he used to call me on his breaks. and he doesn't anymore. He doesn't call me at all. And if i ever need some thing, I have to go and get it or do it. And if he ever needs anything, I have to go and get it or do it. I don't know what to do right now. I'm just getting so aggrivated at *Evil glares* and Brian. For completely different reasons, but none the less, very aggrivated. I wish things were different right now. I wish he had his own car. I wish that *evil glares* didn't need a fucking crutch. I wish that Brian had a normal job. I wish that I wasn't too stupid to pass a stupid test. I wish that i didn't always think i was ugly in comparison to EVERY DAMN WOMAN GIRL LADY CHICK (whatever) ON THIS EARTH! I wish a lot of things, but that doesn't help any of them. Anyways, I have to go apply to school online. Wish me luck and that fucking bull shit.

Some one please....for the love of god. SHOOT ME!