im feelin low
Lately I realize who I really LOVE. The trouble is- he has no idea. We barely see each other besides in a class or what ever but I know that if I was to chose any one guy from my past to bring to my future... it would be him. We hung out tonight and I realize that theres nothing I can do to make him want me. Watching movies is cool but its not the same if your just in his arms as a girl as it is if ur in his arms as his girl. And believe me I want to be his girl. Things with him aren't the same as they are with other boys... He can drive like a complete ass just because he knows it drives me nuts and Im sitting there thinking- eh its alright if I die, atleast I died with him. We just layed in my bed and when he was like I'm going to sleep I was thinking wow... the boy I'm completly in love with is going to sleep in MY bed. I dont know what to do with myself so I'm going to take a hot shower and relax... call me :)