Why do I lose everything that's important to me in life?!
I should really be getting ready for work now...but I just had to write this, for my own sanity! Ugh..yea..need to be at work in like 15 to 20 minutes. Oh well. Just got off the phone to tell my Mom that the guy FINALLY picked up our White Fridge and it's FINALLY GONE!! YAY!! That's one less thing making me sick in this house, although I think it's musty in the basement because I had Sinus problems last night....but still it's better than nothing.
Well..I found out that my Mom in the hospital right now. No not because of something for herself..but because of Grandpa! I was at the ER with him and Grandma last Friday because he did something to his Thumb. Basically he fell down and landed on it...well I guess the doctors figured out today why it even happened. Gramps had a stroke! Yea...so right now they admitted him there...
I don't even know what to think. When things happen to Grandpa I freak out. I really do. It just makes me realize that I'm running out of time! I really am and that just makes me cry and break down. There is a list I've made of things I want Grandpa to make it for.
- High School Graduation
- College Graduation
- Wedding
- my first child
Yes...he's made it to the first two. Believe me...I pretty much almost broke down crying when I was going up to get my diploma and saw Grandpa right next to the stage where he could see me receiving my College Degree. I was soooo incredibly happy he was there for that...and I was pretty sure he's going to make it to my wedding...but now..with all this. I'm getting scared. Plus with everything that's happened...it just freaks me out even more. I mean I already know he most likely won't make it till the point when I have kids and I've pretty much accepted that, but the plan is that Daddy, Paps and Grandpa ALL WALK ME DOWN THE ISLE!!! I know this sounds insane, but this is what I want and have always wanted...because I love him just that much. I just don't know what to do if something happens to Grandpa.
So yea...I know this all sounds stupid...but I just hope things don't go downhill any further for now. I might just lose it completely if it does. Okay I better get dressed so I can run to work. ugh...
laterz <3
Well..I found out that my Mom in the hospital right now. No not because of something for herself..but because of Grandpa! I was at the ER with him and Grandma last Friday because he did something to his Thumb. Basically he fell down and landed on it...well I guess the doctors figured out today why it even happened. Gramps had a stroke! Yea...so right now they admitted him there...
I don't even know what to think. When things happen to Grandpa I freak out. I really do. It just makes me realize that I'm running out of time! I really am and that just makes me cry and break down. There is a list I've made of things I want Grandpa to make it for.
- High School Graduation
- College Graduation
- Wedding
- my first child
Yes...he's made it to the first two. Believe me...I pretty much almost broke down crying when I was going up to get my diploma and saw Grandpa right next to the stage where he could see me receiving my College Degree. I was soooo incredibly happy he was there for that...and I was pretty sure he's going to make it to my wedding...but now..with all this. I'm getting scared. Plus with everything that's happened...it just freaks me out even more. I mean I already know he most likely won't make it till the point when I have kids and I've pretty much accepted that, but the plan is that Daddy, Paps and Grandpa ALL WALK ME DOWN THE ISLE!!! I know this sounds insane, but this is what I want and have always wanted...because I love him just that much. I just don't know what to do if something happens to Grandpa.
So yea...I know this all sounds stupid...but I just hope things don't go downhill any further for now. I might just lose it completely if it does. Okay I better get dressed so I can run to work. ugh...
laterz <3