grrrrrrrr to all!!
woohoo for cranky Jen!!
no seriously...i'm fucking cranky and annoyed. Yesterday didn't help. After spending fucking 5+ hours working on this fucking exam for Web Servlets and only managed to get 3 out of 5 done, since the other ones just didn't want to fucking work. yea..I was pissed.
The good news to that day, was that my bio quiz was pushed to next Tuesday...
On top of that I had this weird emotional moment...I really don't know how to state it any better, but after I finished watching "Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien" I went to bed. During the anime I had already been sad and wishing Marc was here, coz I just want to sit and cuddle with him and watch anime. So when I got upstairs and went to bed I started to tear up coz I just missed him so much. I mean...everyone must think I'm nuts or something, that I'm going nuts and missing him so much, when theoretically we've only been together for a few days. Although I think the feeling have been there for a few months, but we wanted to wait until we met each other in person to offically say we're dating.
I don't know..I guess that I finally met him in person, I love the person he is even more. I mean it's not easy for me to stare into someones eyes for a long period of time. I've only been able to do it with Kurt, and now with Marc, so I know that what's between us two is real love. Still I feel stupid for missing him this badly and just wanting to be in Ohio right now, cuddled in his arms talking about all the stuff we talk about and watching anime. ::sigh::
What scares me a little is the fact that it's only been about 3-4 days since I've seen him and I'm like this...how the hell am I going to be in a month?!? There is no way for him to come for a visit till after final exams, and even then I hope he can come here for the first session of summer classes.
wow..I didn't even mean to write about all this..but I guess it was bugging me...I miss marc, I really do.
Besides that...well..this morning didn't help. I thought I was working 11-8, because I noticed that sam and I had flip shedules, so I was very sure I had to work 11-8. On top of that my mom calls at 9:30 am, asking me to print out directions for the workers at the house and bring them to them before work...great! That just takes away from my sleep! Also for some reason Sam was being really loud this morning, so I wasn't too pleased with that too..or I was just cranky from the start.
So I'm up and ready, bring the directions to find the front door wide open because they gutted the kitchen (sorry everyone...all the wood is gone :-(), and I heard the furnace and told them to turn the heat down since the door is wide open. But after a moment or two I went to check on it myself and found the temp set to freakin' 80 degrees!!! WTF! yea...not happy!
After that I was off to work..and find out I'm not fucking working till 1:30 pm. And they wouldn't let me just work from 11-8 pm...great! Meaning I have to go back to the house just to wait till 1:30...grrr, that also means that I really shouldn't bother asking if I can work 11-8 pm tomorrow, so I can leave for my parents house that night...because they will give me the same line of that they need their closers. Whatever!
mmmmm....i'm really lucky to have Marc. Just got off the phone with him...he really does make me feel better. Just talking to him and letting stuff out helps. I love him so much!! Okay..like I told him, I'm going to go take an hour nap.
more I guess later tonight...I miss and love you so much Marc, remember to talk to your mom today about the summer! Show her the site if you want to, for continuing ed! http://www.keene.edu/conted/
laterz *huggles* ♥
no seriously...i'm fucking cranky and annoyed. Yesterday didn't help. After spending fucking 5+ hours working on this fucking exam for Web Servlets and only managed to get 3 out of 5 done, since the other ones just didn't want to fucking work. yea..I was pissed.
The good news to that day, was that my bio quiz was pushed to next Tuesday...
On top of that I had this weird emotional moment...I really don't know how to state it any better, but after I finished watching "Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien" I went to bed. During the anime I had already been sad and wishing Marc was here, coz I just want to sit and cuddle with him and watch anime. So when I got upstairs and went to bed I started to tear up coz I just missed him so much. I mean...everyone must think I'm nuts or something, that I'm going nuts and missing him so much, when theoretically we've only been together for a few days. Although I think the feeling have been there for a few months, but we wanted to wait until we met each other in person to offically say we're dating.
I don't know..I guess that I finally met him in person, I love the person he is even more. I mean it's not easy for me to stare into someones eyes for a long period of time. I've only been able to do it with Kurt, and now with Marc, so I know that what's between us two is real love. Still I feel stupid for missing him this badly and just wanting to be in Ohio right now, cuddled in his arms talking about all the stuff we talk about and watching anime. ::sigh::
What scares me a little is the fact that it's only been about 3-4 days since I've seen him and I'm like this...how the hell am I going to be in a month?!? There is no way for him to come for a visit till after final exams, and even then I hope he can come here for the first session of summer classes.
wow..I didn't even mean to write about all this..but I guess it was bugging me...I miss marc, I really do.
Besides that...well..this morning didn't help. I thought I was working 11-8, because I noticed that sam and I had flip shedules, so I was very sure I had to work 11-8. On top of that my mom calls at 9:30 am, asking me to print out directions for the workers at the house and bring them to them before work...great! That just takes away from my sleep! Also for some reason Sam was being really loud this morning, so I wasn't too pleased with that too..or I was just cranky from the start.
So I'm up and ready, bring the directions to find the front door wide open because they gutted the kitchen (sorry everyone...all the wood is gone :-(), and I heard the furnace and told them to turn the heat down since the door is wide open. But after a moment or two I went to check on it myself and found the temp set to freakin' 80 degrees!!! WTF! yea...not happy!
After that I was off to work..and find out I'm not fucking working till 1:30 pm. And they wouldn't let me just work from 11-8 pm...great! Meaning I have to go back to the house just to wait till 1:30...grrr, that also means that I really shouldn't bother asking if I can work 11-8 pm tomorrow, so I can leave for my parents house that night...because they will give me the same line of that they need their closers. Whatever!
mmmmm....i'm really lucky to have Marc. Just got off the phone with him...he really does make me feel better. Just talking to him and letting stuff out helps. I love him so much!! Okay..like I told him, I'm going to go take an hour nap.
more I guess later tonight...I miss and love you so much Marc, remember to talk to your mom today about the summer! Show her the site if you want to, for continuing ed! http://www.keene.edu/conted/
laterz *huggles* ♥