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i woke up early today. well, comparatively 1030 is early. i had a glass of orange juice and sat in my computer chair and felt like i had nothing to do. so i went back to bed. the way i figure it, most people are awake 17 hours a day, from 7 to 12 on average. i'm averaging about 13-15, from 1-3. it sure is a wonky schedule, and all the construction they've been doing in the 12 o'clock area (pulverizing the cement steps in the hallway) hasn't been very conducive. it's strange to wake up and get your mail... esp. when it comes around 3. and i get to just throw on my clothes from the day before, usually just some shorts, and spend the whole rest of the day like that. but today i actually showered and put on a new pair of shorts. i leave my air conditioning off and it stays just cool enough throughout the day and is nice and warm at night, such that my feet never get cold and i rarely need to put on a shirt. sigh... i'm afraid all of this is mere banality.
i want a job, i just don't know where.
my bike still isn't here, and i'm not even going to bother going to a courier service if i don't have my bike. maybe i fear rejection. that's what i sure got from best buy, those bastards.
today i watched season one disc one of arrested development. it was funny, and it kept me distracted from working on my music library.
later on i watched adaptation. at first i didn't like it, but as i've been thinking about it, i think the idea that he was essentially writing his own life is fascinating, and very near what i was feeling like a few weeks ago. it's kind of like things started getting really crazy because he allowed them to... at least that's my perception. i really felt like everything after a certain point was just imagination, and since it was imagination, anything could go, like car accidents and drug using and swamp wading. that point, where he was talking into his recorder about the character who was talking into his recorder about a character talking into a recorder... was mind bending. i think it was a very good portrayal of an infinite loop, a type of two opposed mirrors but without an image. instead it was an infinitely deep concept, and that's really cool... maybe it suggests that there are things that aren't just tangible, i.e. "alternate dimensions" where all senses are opposite, where time goes backwards, or an existence outside the bounds of time and in the bounds of some other force not percievable or applicable to us.
the true meta-film. not a film about films, but a film about itself.
last night as i was in bed, letting my mind wander (as is key to falling asleep, i've come to realize), i thought of a black hole being a creature, like a black disk that's just been sitting there, watching us. one day it decided to eat us, and just zoomed over, expanded, and the earth passed through it. i'm sure then he smacks his lips and moves on in search of another planet. then i imagined what would happen after that. i figured that all the rules we have now would change, and specifically thought that gravity would cease to exist, that all would be left is centripital force. go too far to the side of the earth and you fall off.
wow i'm boring.
well this past sunday my sister kept heckling me, after telling her something about myself she'd say "maybe that's why you can't get a girlfriend." this was particularly displeasing because she was the one who was telling me that i need to be alone and feel comfortable with myself before i have any relationships.
after telling her i shower rarely and wear deodorant less, i recieved the scripted response. i said to her "well if a girl doesn't like me for who i am, why should i be with her?" my sister stopped bothering me.
i think i need to cut out "like" from my verbal speech. and i feel like my written speech needs more variety in words and a better structure. often times i go back and read it only to find it... interestingly written. i find myself needing to actually read the words because of the strange, nonstandard way i put them. not that that's a necessarily bad thing.
i finally ditched itunes. it just wasn't working for me anymore. i was tired of all the little bugs and serious lack of any advanced features. i was going to go with foobar2000 but it's a bit overwhelming to get it so it looks and works nicely, plus i was having difficulties right off the bat with how it dealt with arrangement. so i settled on winamp. not my first choice seeing how it's owned by aol, but what isn't owned by aol/timewarner these days. they seem to be keeping their hands off it, mostly.
oops, forgot to post this last night.
i want a job, i just don't know where.
my bike still isn't here, and i'm not even going to bother going to a courier service if i don't have my bike. maybe i fear rejection. that's what i sure got from best buy, those bastards.
today i watched season one disc one of arrested development. it was funny, and it kept me distracted from working on my music library.
later on i watched adaptation. at first i didn't like it, but as i've been thinking about it, i think the idea that he was essentially writing his own life is fascinating, and very near what i was feeling like a few weeks ago. it's kind of like things started getting really crazy because he allowed them to... at least that's my perception. i really felt like everything after a certain point was just imagination, and since it was imagination, anything could go, like car accidents and drug using and swamp wading. that point, where he was talking into his recorder about the character who was talking into his recorder about a character talking into a recorder... was mind bending. i think it was a very good portrayal of an infinite loop, a type of two opposed mirrors but without an image. instead it was an infinitely deep concept, and that's really cool... maybe it suggests that there are things that aren't just tangible, i.e. "alternate dimensions" where all senses are opposite, where time goes backwards, or an existence outside the bounds of time and in the bounds of some other force not percievable or applicable to us.
the true meta-film. not a film about films, but a film about itself.
last night as i was in bed, letting my mind wander (as is key to falling asleep, i've come to realize), i thought of a black hole being a creature, like a black disk that's just been sitting there, watching us. one day it decided to eat us, and just zoomed over, expanded, and the earth passed through it. i'm sure then he smacks his lips and moves on in search of another planet. then i imagined what would happen after that. i figured that all the rules we have now would change, and specifically thought that gravity would cease to exist, that all would be left is centripital force. go too far to the side of the earth and you fall off.
wow i'm boring.
well this past sunday my sister kept heckling me, after telling her something about myself she'd say "maybe that's why you can't get a girlfriend." this was particularly displeasing because she was the one who was telling me that i need to be alone and feel comfortable with myself before i have any relationships.
after telling her i shower rarely and wear deodorant less, i recieved the scripted response. i said to her "well if a girl doesn't like me for who i am, why should i be with her?" my sister stopped bothering me.
i think i need to cut out "like" from my verbal speech. and i feel like my written speech needs more variety in words and a better structure. often times i go back and read it only to find it... interestingly written. i find myself needing to actually read the words because of the strange, nonstandard way i put them. not that that's a necessarily bad thing.
i finally ditched itunes. it just wasn't working for me anymore. i was tired of all the little bugs and serious lack of any advanced features. i was going to go with foobar2000 but it's a bit overwhelming to get it so it looks and works nicely, plus i was having difficulties right off the bat with how it dealt with arrangement. so i settled on winamp. not my first choice seeing how it's owned by aol, but what isn't owned by aol/timewarner these days. they seem to be keeping their hands off it, mostly.
oops, forgot to post this last night.