Ugh.
I thought I trusted someone and then they went and did something stupid and messed it all up for me. I'm sick of it, and I'm sick of her. I'm sick of thinking I know someone and then a small something happens and I realize I don't know them at all. I don't like it when she lies to my face. Most of the time I just let it go, but I couldn't let it go today, I had to catch her. It was worth it, too. Way worth it.
I'm telling you, if we ever go back to being friends like we used to be she's got to do some serious ass-kissing. What I don't understand is that... she was one of the few people I could trust. Now it's even fewer. I mean, what am I supposed to do? And she knew. She knew. I can't trust anyone, and those I can are getting less and less by the day.
I'm sure she thinks I'm the one being the bitch, and she's run off to tell her parents what a meanie I am and how I am a bad Christian, and blah blah blah. I just wanted to get my feelings out in writing, so she saw how I felt. All my life, she's sent me home from school crying or I've hung up the phone sobbing, or she's made little comments that made me have to choke back my tears or hold back a snotty comment back.
We've been friends for a long time. Best friends. And sure, maybe I'm just throwing it away. Maybe we'll be friends again some other time, but right now, I just wish I could stop thinking about it and get on with my life.
I can't.
I love KEL <3.
I'm telling you, if we ever go back to being friends like we used to be she's got to do some serious ass-kissing. What I don't understand is that... she was one of the few people I could trust. Now it's even fewer. I mean, what am I supposed to do? And she knew. She knew. I can't trust anyone, and those I can are getting less and less by the day.
I'm sure she thinks I'm the one being the bitch, and she's run off to tell her parents what a meanie I am and how I am a bad Christian, and blah blah blah. I just wanted to get my feelings out in writing, so she saw how I felt. All my life, she's sent me home from school crying or I've hung up the phone sobbing, or she's made little comments that made me have to choke back my tears or hold back a snotty comment back.
We've been friends for a long time. Best friends. And sure, maybe I'm just throwing it away. Maybe we'll be friends again some other time, but right now, I just wish I could stop thinking about it and get on with my life.
I can't.
I love KEL <3.