Sorry this is so long & depressing. In fact don't even read it. lol It's boring. Skip to the end!!!
So yeh... I'm in a I-dislike-everything mood right now.
Church was good Saturday. We had a bible study that really stuck with me. Kind of made me ashamed. It was about how Abraham was called God's friend in James 2:23 and how we can be His friend too. Like we can talk to him like that. Tell him everything for sure like we think we can our friends. It made me think of my little brother and how much he's changed and grown up. It makes me so sad how he's not that little boy anymore. But! I am so proud of him. Sometimes at night I'll walk by his door and be able to hear vaguely him praying. There is always so much emotion in his voice.
The other night when he was in my room, we were talking sitting in the floor and laughing together and he told me that it took him an hour to pray. I was more than a little bit shocked and ashamed of myself. I've been thinking of my relationship with God and what I am lacking. I don't think I will ever be close enough to Him like I would like to be close enough to know that every decision I make will be based on His word.
Like with this job situation. Blah. And with my people relationships. I'm having a hard time talking to people I used to like better than anything. Maybe it's me but I feel like everyone is growing apart and not wanting anything to do with anyone else. I know that everyone is number one to themselves and not many people really care enough about anyone else. Unless they are of paticular interest to them and then they are all that matters. I wish I could say I was different. Man, why do I feel like I'm sitting sideways. Whoa. Anyway. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to like anyone for just a day. To tell them all how I really feel. But then wouldn't that be a disaster. I would wind up all alone. And then on the days when I feel like I like people again, no one would want to be around me. Haha.
Got some new boots today. Ariats. Wore them to work today with my dad and bros. I wired a ton of can lights and skinned a few kitties(a.k.a wires). Called Chris today cause I had been thinking about him and saw some lady walk by with a Colorado Sweatshirt on in Lowes. It was a sign. Haha. He was snow-boarding again. :-) It's weird how many people there are from Colorado here in SC. I see at least one Colorado license plate every morning on the way to school or work. Maybe it's just that I'm looking harder than before.
Anyway... Liv and I were planning some things for spring break. April 8-23. Here are some of the things. Chris and Sam are coming so we were thinking of double dating one night. We had a Carowinds trip (open-invitation) we are trying to find a good date for everyone. We are thinking of going back to Huntington beach for a campout with close friends. And ... I have some things planned but will reveal them in due time. Haha. Maybe not.
And... this coming weekend is the China Grove pot luck that everyone is invited to but probably will not show up. Liv and I were thinking of gettin everyone out of there and going to see a movie and going to the mall. I'm driving up this time. lol So she better not get me lost again. Or I won't play DDR with her. So there! Well I think I have said enough for now.
BTW Is anyone going to prom this year?? I haven't thought much about it. If I go it'll be a last minute decision.
Byebye!
Yall have a good week!
Church was good Saturday. We had a bible study that really stuck with me. Kind of made me ashamed. It was about how Abraham was called God's friend in James 2:23 and how we can be His friend too. Like we can talk to him like that. Tell him everything for sure like we think we can our friends. It made me think of my little brother and how much he's changed and grown up. It makes me so sad how he's not that little boy anymore. But! I am so proud of him. Sometimes at night I'll walk by his door and be able to hear vaguely him praying. There is always so much emotion in his voice.
The other night when he was in my room, we were talking sitting in the floor and laughing together and he told me that it took him an hour to pray. I was more than a little bit shocked and ashamed of myself. I've been thinking of my relationship with God and what I am lacking. I don't think I will ever be close enough to Him like I would like to be close enough to know that every decision I make will be based on His word.
Like with this job situation. Blah. And with my people relationships. I'm having a hard time talking to people I used to like better than anything. Maybe it's me but I feel like everyone is growing apart and not wanting anything to do with anyone else. I know that everyone is number one to themselves and not many people really care enough about anyone else. Unless they are of paticular interest to them and then they are all that matters. I wish I could say I was different. Man, why do I feel like I'm sitting sideways. Whoa. Anyway. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to like anyone for just a day. To tell them all how I really feel. But then wouldn't that be a disaster. I would wind up all alone. And then on the days when I feel like I like people again, no one would want to be around me. Haha.
Got some new boots today. Ariats. Wore them to work today with my dad and bros. I wired a ton of can lights and skinned a few kitties(a.k.a wires). Called Chris today cause I had been thinking about him and saw some lady walk by with a Colorado Sweatshirt on in Lowes. It was a sign. Haha. He was snow-boarding again. :-) It's weird how many people there are from Colorado here in SC. I see at least one Colorado license plate every morning on the way to school or work. Maybe it's just that I'm looking harder than before.
Anyway... Liv and I were planning some things for spring break. April 8-23. Here are some of the things. Chris and Sam are coming so we were thinking of double dating one night. We had a Carowinds trip (open-invitation) we are trying to find a good date for everyone. We are thinking of going back to Huntington beach for a campout with close friends. And ... I have some things planned but will reveal them in due time. Haha. Maybe not.
And... this coming weekend is the China Grove pot luck that everyone is invited to but probably will not show up. Liv and I were thinking of gettin everyone out of there and going to see a movie and going to the mall. I'm driving up this time. lol So she better not get me lost again. Or I won't play DDR with her. So there! Well I think I have said enough for now.
BTW Is anyone going to prom this year?? I haven't thought much about it. If I go it'll be a last minute decision.
Byebye!
Yall have a good week!