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Luck appears to have been on my side.
I talked to our director the other day, and it's official:
I'm the Starkeeper/Dr. Seldon.
I'm happy about it, I guess.
I mean... it's something other than ensemble.
But something about it just doesn't feel right.
I'm not quite sure what...
Oh well.
It's funny:
We (myself, Eric [our director], Ellen [our assistant director], Justin [my "heavenly homeboy"], and Scott [the hoodlum that's taken up to heaven by Justin]) were sitting in the chorus room the other day, reading through and rehearsing three of the scenes we have together.
During this reading/rehearsing, my entire vision of this Starkeeper completely changed, and I almost had a strange understanding for him (well, her now).
It was pretty neat.
I never had that kind of "connection," if you will, with a character before.
Hmm.
One thing that's been bothering me about SDW (besides the fact that I SUCK at harmonizing and am super inconsistent with it):
There's so much negativity there.
It's not something you see, either...
You can feel it.
You walk into the school, and it's almost overwhelming sometimes.
...I don't know, maybe it's just me, but...
It makes me sad.
And puts me in a not-so-great mood.
I don't think you have any idea how much hell I went through this past school year.
(Yeah, you don't. I definitely didn't tell you about it, and never will. [No offense.])
Let's just say that it just wasn't a good year for me, and...
It just really, really wasn't.
And now I've got the summer, where I'm planning on relaxing, spending some time with some of my friends in SDW...
(If they still are my friends. Because of this whole school year, I've become really distant with all of them, and I really regret it, even if there was nothing I could have done about it.)
I miss them.
Anywho...
The negativity is killing me.
I need to surround myself with positivity and optimism.
I need to de-stress.
To, like I said in one of my previous entries, get my life back in order.
Get it back on the right track.
Save my life before it gets forever trapped in a little grey cloud, never to come out again.
Not even when it rains.
I go see my psych soon.
Maybe we'll screw around with my medication some more.
< sarcasm >Wheeeeeeeeee!< /end sarcasm >
Final Destination: The World's Best comes on today.
At noon.
On Fox Sports Network.
It's a complete rip off of the REAL Cheerleading Worlds, but a couple of my favorite teams went to Final Destination and won, so I'm hoping to see them on television.
That'd make my day.
Yup.
You know what else would make my day?
Going somewhere with a big, open field where thousands of wildflowers grow, and I can lay among them and watch the cotton-white clouds go by...
And then run over to a little brook where I can sit upon a big rock and listen to the water running downstream...
And if you're tempted to ask:
Yes, my childhood sucked.
Which is why, to this day, I want to do cute, silly, childish things that all little kids do, at least once.
I want my childhood back.
Hell, I want a childhood.
Never really had a proper one, I suppose.
I regret that, but again... it's out of my control.
Yeah.
I think that's it.
Yup.
I talked to our director the other day, and it's official:
I'm the Starkeeper/Dr. Seldon.
I'm happy about it, I guess.
I mean... it's something other than ensemble.
But something about it just doesn't feel right.
I'm not quite sure what...
Oh well.
It's funny:
We (myself, Eric [our director], Ellen [our assistant director], Justin [my "heavenly homeboy"], and Scott [the hoodlum that's taken up to heaven by Justin]) were sitting in the chorus room the other day, reading through and rehearsing three of the scenes we have together.
During this reading/rehearsing, my entire vision of this Starkeeper completely changed, and I almost had a strange understanding for him (well, her now).
It was pretty neat.
I never had that kind of "connection," if you will, with a character before.
Hmm.
One thing that's been bothering me about SDW (besides the fact that I SUCK at harmonizing and am super inconsistent with it):
There's so much negativity there.
It's not something you see, either...
You can feel it.
You walk into the school, and it's almost overwhelming sometimes.
...I don't know, maybe it's just me, but...
It makes me sad.
And puts me in a not-so-great mood.
I don't think you have any idea how much hell I went through this past school year.
(Yeah, you don't. I definitely didn't tell you about it, and never will. [No offense.])
Let's just say that it just wasn't a good year for me, and...
It just really, really wasn't.
And now I've got the summer, where I'm planning on relaxing, spending some time with some of my friends in SDW...
(If they still are my friends. Because of this whole school year, I've become really distant with all of them, and I really regret it, even if there was nothing I could have done about it.)
I miss them.
Anywho...
The negativity is killing me.
I need to surround myself with positivity and optimism.
I need to de-stress.
To, like I said in one of my previous entries, get my life back in order.
Get it back on the right track.
Save my life before it gets forever trapped in a little grey cloud, never to come out again.
Not even when it rains.
I go see my psych soon.
Maybe we'll screw around with my medication some more.
< sarcasm >Wheeeeeeeeee!< /end sarcasm >
Final Destination: The World's Best comes on today.
At noon.
On Fox Sports Network.
It's a complete rip off of the REAL Cheerleading Worlds, but a couple of my favorite teams went to Final Destination and won, so I'm hoping to see them on television.
That'd make my day.
Yup.
You know what else would make my day?
Going somewhere with a big, open field where thousands of wildflowers grow, and I can lay among them and watch the cotton-white clouds go by...
And then run over to a little brook where I can sit upon a big rock and listen to the water running downstream...
And if you're tempted to ask:
Yes, my childhood sucked.
Which is why, to this day, I want to do cute, silly, childish things that all little kids do, at least once.
I want my childhood back.
Hell, I want a childhood.
Never really had a proper one, I suppose.
I regret that, but again... it's out of my control.
Yeah.
I think that's it.
Yup.