ugh
i'm gonna whine damn it
i have had a headache, sore throat, and earache for a couple of days, havent been sleeping well. The stress level in this house is unbearable, i feel bad there is not a damn thing i can do, i am so sick and tired of seeing dad so stressed out, mom trapped by this damn disease. i havent talked to my uncle or my gramother in months and it doesnt bother me. there all off living there lives and not giving a damn about anyone but themsleves.
i miss my boyfriend. most of the time i can deal with him being so far away. What choice do i have? it sucks more becuase hes out trainging at ap hill and we dont get to talk as much as we usualy do. I'm lonley and sad and tired. I want to just cry and have him hold me. Nothing can change the situation but just being in his arms will help. The only way i will get a decent night sleep is by him laying next to me. I hate nights like this, mostly becuase i know theres gonna be many more, especaily when hes in Iraq. that'll be worse becuase i cant text him or call him, i just have to deal with it. For i am a marine girlfriend and thats what we do. I know its just as hard on him. Least i have my friends and family here. I dont have to work long ass days, live off MRE's for 2 weeks, or go spend 7 months of my life defending our country in a war zone. 17 days and i get to be with him again. we've been together for a month and 10 days and have spent a total of 6 days together. i dont mean to sound bitchy, but honestly if someone tells em they miss there guy and they have the ability to see him/call him whenever they please, i will have no sympathy. blah. it sucks to hear him so tired over the phone, and having a headache from hell and not being able to do a damn thing about it. i love him and i miss him and i just want be in his arms. hell at this point i'll settle for a phone call. even a 5 minute phone call. He called before but after a few minutes it was "an we have a problem, got to go baby love you bye" got a text later saying someone lost something and they had to find it. i'm gonna go cuddle with my bear and stare at my cell phone, maybe i can will him to call.
i have had a headache, sore throat, and earache for a couple of days, havent been sleeping well. The stress level in this house is unbearable, i feel bad there is not a damn thing i can do, i am so sick and tired of seeing dad so stressed out, mom trapped by this damn disease. i havent talked to my uncle or my gramother in months and it doesnt bother me. there all off living there lives and not giving a damn about anyone but themsleves.
i miss my boyfriend. most of the time i can deal with him being so far away. What choice do i have? it sucks more becuase hes out trainging at ap hill and we dont get to talk as much as we usualy do. I'm lonley and sad and tired. I want to just cry and have him hold me. Nothing can change the situation but just being in his arms will help. The only way i will get a decent night sleep is by him laying next to me. I hate nights like this, mostly becuase i know theres gonna be many more, especaily when hes in Iraq. that'll be worse becuase i cant text him or call him, i just have to deal with it. For i am a marine girlfriend and thats what we do. I know its just as hard on him. Least i have my friends and family here. I dont have to work long ass days, live off MRE's for 2 weeks, or go spend 7 months of my life defending our country in a war zone. 17 days and i get to be with him again. we've been together for a month and 10 days and have spent a total of 6 days together. i dont mean to sound bitchy, but honestly if someone tells em they miss there guy and they have the ability to see him/call him whenever they please, i will have no sympathy. blah. it sucks to hear him so tired over the phone, and having a headache from hell and not being able to do a damn thing about it. i love him and i miss him and i just want be in his arms. hell at this point i'll settle for a phone call. even a 5 minute phone call. He called before but after a few minutes it was "an we have a problem, got to go baby love you bye" got a text later saying someone lost something and they had to find it. i'm gonna go cuddle with my bear and stare at my cell phone, maybe i can will him to call.