whoa.
I have never been as scared yet happy at the same time as I am right now. I dropped out of Fredonia. I dont care if you think I'm fucking up my life. I've really stopped caring about a lot of useless bullshit lately. Care about what matters and thats it. It sucks that I'm stuck here until somebody is kind enough to help me move my shit seeing as how my own mother wont do it for me. My whole goal is to completely prove her wrong. She made me cry the other night and idk it was shitty. Mami G. hahaha what a joke. There has been so much shit going on in my life its pretty crazy. I broke up with Corey for the last time about a month ago? I feel like a new person. I really am different though, or so I've been told.
I think its weird how people say that nobody ever really changes, and yet that will be the same person to tell me I'm sooo different now. I feel like I can be myself for once, no censorship or holding back. I love it, I really do. With all this new found spare time on my hands I know I'm going to have to get a jorrrb. SOOO yeah.
In other newss, I might be going to California to live with TITIJUDY. I feel like its just where I belong but the decision is harder than anybody knows. YOU try moving 3000 mi. across the country without knowing anyone out there but your aunt uncle and two cousins. yeah, really, try it. No one can say shit to me about being reluctant in my decision cause you are not in my situation. I have to decide relatively shortly if I'm moving out there or not and that doesnt really help. I just want to scream about it sometimes.
This brings me to Adam Krembel. gggggggood lord. this boy. I am speechless about it really. He seems to be perfect, but I know better. I feel like I've delt with his type before, but then I realize hes unlike anybody else I've ever met. I am the most vulnerable I have ever been with him. He could totally devastate me, and you know what. I dont even care. It feels amazing and I'm rolling with it.
What elseeee is there to talk about. ummm idk I feel like I might be using this thing more just because I find my mind racing a million miles a minute and I cant sleep until I get my thoughts out somehow. Like right now, 3 26 in the morning and I cant sleep because I'm thinking about how fast my life has changed and whether or not I'm okay with all of it. I hate uncertainty. and I think that'll do it for now.
peacccce
I think its weird how people say that nobody ever really changes, and yet that will be the same person to tell me I'm sooo different now. I feel like I can be myself for once, no censorship or holding back. I love it, I really do. With all this new found spare time on my hands I know I'm going to have to get a jorrrb. SOOO yeah.
In other newss, I might be going to California to live with TITIJUDY. I feel like its just where I belong but the decision is harder than anybody knows. YOU try moving 3000 mi. across the country without knowing anyone out there but your aunt uncle and two cousins. yeah, really, try it. No one can say shit to me about being reluctant in my decision cause you are not in my situation. I have to decide relatively shortly if I'm moving out there or not and that doesnt really help. I just want to scream about it sometimes.
This brings me to Adam Krembel. gggggggood lord. this boy. I am speechless about it really. He seems to be perfect, but I know better. I feel like I've delt with his type before, but then I realize hes unlike anybody else I've ever met. I am the most vulnerable I have ever been with him. He could totally devastate me, and you know what. I dont even care. It feels amazing and I'm rolling with it.
What elseeee is there to talk about. ummm idk I feel like I might be using this thing more just because I find my mind racing a million miles a minute and I cant sleep until I get my thoughts out somehow. Like right now, 3 26 in the morning and I cant sleep because I'm thinking about how fast my life has changed and whether or not I'm okay with all of it. I hate uncertainty. and I think that'll do it for now.
peacccce