COME ON PEOPLE... PUT THE H.S DRAMA BEHIND!
highschool drama is bullshit! everyone need to realize this and get past it. we don't need it in highschool and we definatley do NOT need to carry it on into college or even worse... past college! I mean come on people! what on earth does it accomplish... all this he said she said stuff.... its BULLSHIT!
why would you listen to someone who lies all the time over your bestfriend? over somone who tells you EVERYTHING!?!? what would make you think they are lying NOW? when they are truthful about everything..?
why would you bitch at someone because they are dating a certain person or because they did stuff with someone... its dumb.. it happened already... why get pissed off over it? they aren't going to change their mind about doing it just cuz you bitch! they will probably just get mad because you have the nerve to tell them they were wrong!
Why hold grudges over stuffed that happened forever ago??
why screw up your life because of what others say or do?
LIVE FOR YOURSELF!
DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY!
DON'T BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU HEAR, BECAUSE IN H.S. MOST OF IT IS JUST RUMORS! (even after h.s., in college this stuff is the same cuz some people can't get past it!) its sad but true!
PEOPLE LIKE TO MAKE THEMSELVES FEEL GOOD. AND IF THAT MEANS THEY HAVE TO HURT SOMEONE ELSE TO ACCOMPLISH THIS, THEY WILL!
ya see im guilty for doing many of these things... i have lived for others... listened to the gossip.... tried to make everyone else happy... listened to what others said and held grudges.. im also guilty for trying to come up with reasons for everything... ultimatley blaming myself for most things... i find some way to link it to myself and make it my fault if there is no logical explanation...
I have realized that all of this is ruining my life.
*before i was trying to do well in school for my mom... i got bad grades.. this year im doing it for me and my lowest grade is an 87!
*before i was letting poeple get into my head about being with andy. i basically told them i was going to do what i want and i have never been happier. He is my best friend and i love everything about him. He is the person that is always there for me.
*I went along with peoples pointless arguments.. now i walk away and tell them that when they want to talk they can, but im not going to be yelled at.
*gossip is a waste of time... it only hurts people and its usually a bunch of crap, halftruths and shit people make up to ruin others reputations.
*Cliques are pointless... the popular crowd doesn't stay popular outside of hs it ends there... i don't understand why people get so into that. What does being popular accomplish for you anyways?
*everything isn't my fault. I realize that. someone helped explain things to me... what i do to myself is when i can't figure out why something happened to me i try to justify it. and it usually ends up on my shoulders, in other words i blame it on myself i say im the reason it happened.. when in reality thats not it... i may never know the real reasons some things happen but i just realized i don't NEED to know them. its not going to change anything really.
*grudges... i hold them pretty bad... but ya know what im done. I don't care anymore WTF am i putting my time into hating people WTF is that going to accomplish??!! NOTHING! thast right.. so why do it?! theres no reason! so im done... From now on im telling poeple what i feel.. if i have an issue im gonna try to put it on the table there and then! no more letting stuff build up!
HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA IS NOT FOR ME!... Im done with it! if you have something to say to me just say it! :-) no more grudges no more drama. Im gaining control of my life!
ALL ASPECTS!
*my love life.... Thats good i took that back already. andy is amazing! i love everything about him thats a good thing in my life right now!
*school.... thats good right now too! grades are high! :-)
*friends.... some stuff still needs to be worked out... thats on the list of stuff to do
*family also needs to be worked on
*work.. is pretty good.
*any old enemies... im done with it. NO MORE DRAMA
*i need to get more organized too
HMM anyways.. I THINK EVERYONE JUST NEEDS TO HELP THEMSELVES AND COME INTO REALITY AND REALIZE THAT YOU DON'T NEED THE DRAMA IN YOUR LIFE. BE TRUE TO YOURSELF, FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, DISREGARD THE RUMORS AND BULLSHIT AND COME BACK INTO TERMS WITH WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU WANT TO LIVE YOUR LIFE!
thats it! im done now! Night everyone! :-)