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I don't know what to post for a subject for this entry, because Its mostly an update on whats been happening wiht me right now and also to maybe try and touch base again with some of my friends.
The place to begin I guess is the fact that I am soon to be a father. My wife Amanda is currently due May 3, 2006. It seems that theres a good chance it will be a girl. In expectation of this we decided that it would be best if we immediatly found a bigger apartment and prepared ahead early to have the space for the baby.
Those are the major going ons in my life right now that most pple should know about.
Now, thats aside, I write to those of you whose paths in life we once shared, and called ourselves 'Friends'. I know alot has changed for all of us, and I expected some to drift a little ways away only to come back closer again, or perhaps infrequently. There are those who will always be a constant in my life, my wife, my child, mom and dad, my relatives. And then there are the ones who were at one time constants. People who were always so enjoyable to have around, People who were there for you no matter what.
I can't find them anymore.
You know who you are, you know what changes have happened, I don't pretened to understand them, in one case I am still in the dark as to what happened to their life so as to lead them so far from me. All I know is I miss them, even married and wiht a baby on the way, I need those people to be a important part of my life. One person in particular is still very important to me as a friend, but is the one who has drifted so far that nothing I say or do will bring him back, ONLY the decisions and choices he make will do that. Knowing that inspires in me a frustration that words will NEVER be able to express.
I cannot begin to understand why you are where you are, but if you need to just sit and spill it ALL out to somone, just call. Oh, forgive me if I have ever said one thing then acted differntly, I am far from a perfect example. All I want to do is help.
The place to begin I guess is the fact that I am soon to be a father. My wife Amanda is currently due May 3, 2006. It seems that theres a good chance it will be a girl. In expectation of this we decided that it would be best if we immediatly found a bigger apartment and prepared ahead early to have the space for the baby.
Those are the major going ons in my life right now that most pple should know about.
Now, thats aside, I write to those of you whose paths in life we once shared, and called ourselves 'Friends'. I know alot has changed for all of us, and I expected some to drift a little ways away only to come back closer again, or perhaps infrequently. There are those who will always be a constant in my life, my wife, my child, mom and dad, my relatives. And then there are the ones who were at one time constants. People who were always so enjoyable to have around, People who were there for you no matter what.
I can't find them anymore.
You know who you are, you know what changes have happened, I don't pretened to understand them, in one case I am still in the dark as to what happened to their life so as to lead them so far from me. All I know is I miss them, even married and wiht a baby on the way, I need those people to be a important part of my life. One person in particular is still very important to me as a friend, but is the one who has drifted so far that nothing I say or do will bring him back, ONLY the decisions and choices he make will do that. Knowing that inspires in me a frustration that words will NEVER be able to express.
I cannot begin to understand why you are where you are, but if you need to just sit and spill it ALL out to somone, just call. Oh, forgive me if I have ever said one thing then acted differntly, I am far from a perfect example. All I want to do is help.