Long Time

[dreamdragon_nb]

Well i guess now that i have a few min, i can write in this thing. although there is not that much to write and i don't think anyone missed me when i was not writing in here. anyways things have been up and down for the past few months. start off with work. i started to get a hang of being a sup, just in time for the real one to return. i am still going to be getting my pay and share in the responsablity till nov. who the hell knows what will happen after that. every one, i mean every one was upset that she came back a month early. relationship side of things, i thought were going to pick up, but they did not. i feel used cause i was "near" well i hooked up with the same person i mentioned before, only this time it was them that came over to see me at 3 in the morning. so i thought something was going to come of that, but nooo, after a few attemps to contact them to see what the hell was going on (time frame of 2 weeks) i get no responce back and still have not heard from them. so i started to work on myself, to make my self better. i stoped drink a lot of soda and started drinking more water, working out, or at lest tring too. and i quit smoking. its been almost 3 week since i had a smoke. i miss it, but that goes away fast now.
well thats about it, did a few fun things with friends, had a birthday. just looking to make myself better. i am tired of watching others be happy all the time. my mask is gone, broken from the long time of fake happiness, now i am just doing things that really make me happy.