Update
Alright perhaps its connected with being home. I finally went out and did all the things that i had to do. Stopped by the bank, got gas, got the lumber I need to make my desk hutch, went to officemax to fax a few papers. Along the way I stopped at Carvel to get a Reese's Peanut Butter cup dasher. (Yes I know food doesn't ACTUALLY make you feel better, but I try it on occasion) I was blasting the Into the Woods soundtrack, I picked it because I knew it well and its funny and it's mostly up beat and I am STARTING to get tired of mamma mia, and it was working. The guys at Lakeland Lumber were all teasing me about my dad who has been a customer of theirs since he was my age. The guy at the desk goes "You know, I've met his wife and I've met his daughter and they are both very nice. And I have to ask, what happened to Mario?" I got like five compliments on my eyes today. Perhaps because I am wearing a blue shirt and my hair is pulled back in a ballet bun so it's the most obvious thing to see. But I was suprised as they are awfully tired and bloodshot because they need to cry and I feel like crap.
Anyway so I get home and unload the car, I'm feeling better. At least not completely down in the dumps, and I come online and my moods back already. I know that you guys care, I really do. The only reason I am making yet ANOTHER entry about being depressed is because depressed people tend to feel lonely. And I feel very lonely right now. So I'll make a million entries just so I can feel that I'm doing all I can to let the world know that I am hurting.
I'm watcing myself to make sure I don't get too far deep into the mood. It's just plain annoying. Hmm interesting enough though, I was very irritable this morning and now I am only sad. *sigh* Well here's to hoping dance puts me in a good mood. It should be an easy day since we are having a guest teacher.
Talk to you soon.
Anyway so I get home and unload the car, I'm feeling better. At least not completely down in the dumps, and I come online and my moods back already. I know that you guys care, I really do. The only reason I am making yet ANOTHER entry about being depressed is because depressed people tend to feel lonely. And I feel very lonely right now. So I'll make a million entries just so I can feel that I'm doing all I can to let the world know that I am hurting.
I'm watcing myself to make sure I don't get too far deep into the mood. It's just plain annoying. Hmm interesting enough though, I was very irritable this morning and now I am only sad. *sigh* Well here's to hoping dance puts me in a good mood. It should be an easy day since we are having a guest teacher.
Talk to you soon.